Joining 12WBT again
Monday, July 01, 2019
Three weeks ago I decided to join 12WBT again, Michelle Bridges program. For any of you who do not know MB she is a personal trainer in Australia that has a 12 week program. I joined because my weight was increasing instead of decreasing and since joining the program I have lost 2.2kgs which is great, I have stopped having desert and stopped using Chocolate as my only means of nutrition. I have been on this program before, so I know that it works. Although I am still a bit weary of the exercise program, because I have dodgy knees, getting on the floor was OK but trying to get up was a nightmare. I have gradually started to modify those exercises so that I don't need to get on the floor, that will come when I know that I can easily get off the floor without a struggle.
I am just putting my bad choices down to a bad patch, feeling sorry for myself, AGAIN, feeling worthless, unloved and generally feeling really bad about myself. Feeling like it is useless and I am destined to be overweight. But I have turned a corner, I still have those feelings, but I am not using food as a comfort, I have my dog he listens when I need to vent, I have also started talking to myself, crazy I know, but it is helping me to make the right choices nutritiously. I have not had chocolate for a week and a half, I can go to the grocery store and not place chocolate in my trolley, through this journey I discovered that buying chocolate was a habit, not through hunger, so I have taught myself to change bad habits for good habits and it is WORKING. I was avoiding the grocery store because it got so bad, I started shopping online, but then thought that this does not solve the problem I need to face this temptation head on, and then pat myself on the back when I can go into a store and not buy sweets or chocolate.