Weight loss Anxiety... and throwing it all away
Monday, June 10, 2019
For the last 5-7years I have tried every diet out there, WW, Keto, a nutritionist, curves Atkins and so many more. Yeah I lost some weight but I never kept it off and I never learned what I was doing wrong. It was so hard to except and believe that I could do this. I Joined spark people 2 years ago but never followed the program because I felt like I was a failure. Why bother trying because It wasn't goin to work right! .. and then one day I realized that I hated looking in the mirror, I hated who and what I had become. I stopped going to the beach or sharing fun times and being in the pictures with my husband and children and Grandchildren. I was missing out on so much and it was not how I wanted to spend the rest of my life. But if I didn't try it would not happen. If I am going to be a failure I decided to be a failure at something else... not my life. So I prayed and then I opened up my spark people app about 2.5 months ago with a new determination. I let the anxiety of the past go and realized that the only one that could do this is me. I need my support system, but I have to make the changes I have to learn what I am doing wrong, and learn what keeps me from loosing and I have to get serious. What is my why... how will I get there.... I don't want to hate the reflection in the mirror, I want to be proud of it. no matter what size I am . I don't want to loose weight... I want to be healthy and I can be. For the first two months I lost nothing.. I gained 3 lbs and lost it again but until the last two weeks there was no loss now I am down 3 lbs. I have faith in me and in the program. I have learned more about my body how it works and what it takes, and about nutrition in the last 2.5 months than I have learned in 50 years. I can do this, I will do this and so can you.