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Letting it all go

Wednesday, June 05, 2019

Today I did something pretty amazing for myself. You see, in high school, I hurt my knee and had surgery from which I never fully recovered. From that time on, it was near impossible for me to run or even jog...not that I did much of that before my injury, but... People, including my own parents, made fun of me when I tried to run. They created a term for what I looked like running and would laugh hysterically at me. It hurt, but eventually I resigned and made fun of myself. I gave up ever being able to jog, run, or even ride a bike again. But, as I continue on my journey to a healthier me and spend time daily at the gym I am inspired by others. I watch as people twice my size jog or run and push themselves to new limits. Insert negative self talk here..."if only I could", "don't even try, people will laugh at you", you'll look stupid.... But, today, on my 44th birthday, I pushed all those past hurts, thoughts and feelings aside. I warmed up and thought, it's now or never. I pushed up the speed of the treadmill, held on for dear life, and gave it all I had for 20 seconds. Wow, it was such a freeing experience. I tested myself and I passed! I resumed my normal walking speed and beamed with pride. Then, I did it again and again... I left the gym today as a new woman, a woman with more confidence than I've ever had. I am now motivated to continue to push through those hurtful memories and jog through the next chapter of my life, even if it is for 20 seconds at a time. Best. Birthday gift. EVER
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    Very powerful, what birthday gift.
    236 days ago
  • MARTHA324
    Wonderful birthday gift to you
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    We can't let others influence how we feel about ourselves or what we challenge ourselves to do. So happy for you that you let these early thoughts go.

    236 days ago
  • CLARI6457
    That is awesome I! I know how it feels to try and accomplish something it may seem small to some but to us it’s a huge step. Keep on keeping on!
    236 days ago
    236 days ago
  • ZRIE014
    i walked on the treadmill for 1 hr today for 5.26 mi. i walk everyday on the treadmill for 1 hr.
    236 days ago
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