Tuesday, June 04, 2019
Today I am lacking motivation. I feel so tired today. I am not sure why. Obviously there does not have to be a reason for being tired. I just am tired and that is the way it is. I love working out and right now I don't feel like doing that. I am going to because in order to lose weight it must be done. I am going to do what I need to do. I am just hoping that I can talk myself into being motivated to go above and beyond what I would normally do. I like walking laps so why do I feel like they are a chore today. Maybe it is because my child is at work with me today and I just feel like chatting and possibly taking a nap. I am not going to nap at work but I feel like I might want to. I swear I have the best job on the planet. If I need to have my child come to work with me he can come. It is nice when I know my bosses and they know me. They know I am not going to have him here just to have him here. He had testing at school today and got done early. So he took the city bus to my job. Unfortunately there is no city bus stop near my house. If there was I wouldn't let him use it anyways. My neighborhood is not safe for people to be walking alone around the neighborhood. I wish I had the money to move to a nicer neighborhood, but it is a family home and it was a good area when I first took the house over from my Mom. I took over the house 8 years ago this July. The area has gotten worse. Yesterday someone shot their wife and then took their own life. The week before that someone shot someone else about 6 blocks from where I live. It just isn't getting safer. We use to have a police substation in the area. People kept vandalizing the substation so they moved out of the area. I don't get that but ok. It is almost time to do my laps again. I think I am craving fresh air. Since I am the only one that works in the office I cannot leave the office to do my laps. So I have to do them inside around the office furniture. Maybe I will try a different way of walking. Instead of going in circles I will go long ways. That might be an interesting option. I am going to give that a try. Change up my routine and get things moving. I am determined to have a fantastic day. I want my fantastic day. Things are going to be fantastic. I haven't been really busy but I have been decently busy. I guess. It could be busier. It could definitely be busier. Man these last couple of days my motivation has just not been there. I am going to make it appear out of no where.