I've done some walking away in my life, but in many instances it was either too early, or too late.
I've been a doormat and a people-pleaser.
I've been a daughter, wife, mom, friend, employee and completely lost myself.
I have let other people's opinions of me dictate my happiness and my self-worth. I am learning to better control the messages I'm sending myself.
At 57 years old I am finally getting to know ME. I am caring for myself and paying attention to what I want, need and like.
I'm going after things that spark joy and leaving behind the heaviness of rejection. Not that rejection doesn't still hurt or still fall down my cheeks as salty tears on occasion, but it doesn't engulf my daily life or hijack my opinions of myself anymore.
I've learned that it's okay to be a little selfish if it means I'm going to be healthier mentally and physically because of my choices.
I've learned that a bowl of sauteed asparagus and garlic is a perfectly acceptable lunch.
I've learned that sometimes I'm going to mess up.
I've learned that messing up teaches me lessons that doing things right never will and that I should be grateful for those lessons.
I've learned that the love of my husband, daughter and granddaughter are priceless and not to let other people encroach too deeply into the precious time I have with them.
I've learned that I am happier when I'm caring for my spiritual needs and attending church and reading my Bible daily. It feeds my soul like nothing else ever has and brings me joy and peace.
I've learned that serving others is a great blessing, but that I cannot shove my own needs onto the back burner except on occasion. Burning myself out is not helpful for anyone. I can't be what I want to be for others if I don't take care of myself first.
These lessons help me daily, even when I don't always abide by them.
Have a blessed day!
These beautiful girls are my daughter, granddaughter and little cousin. Life is so much richer because of them!