Friday, May 10, 2019
So today I have realized that I am tired of exercising and I am tired of tracking my food and of trying to get fit. I feel deflated I guess. When I first started this journey I was so excited to lose all my weight and so excited to actually be healthy. Now I just want a juicy burger and some fries. This realization helped me in so many ways. For the longest time I was in like the honeymoon phase of dieting. Nothing is going to get me down and I am on top of the world. Well life isn't like that. Life is a struggle and so is everything else. Yes I may want that juicy burger and fries but at what cost. I definitely do not want to be diabetic. The truth is sometimes hard to swallow. I know that what I am doing is the right thing for me. I know that it is going to be a struggle and it isn't going to be sunshine and rainbows all the time. I don't think I can never have those fries and a burger but it will have to be in moderation and if I want that I have to do without something else. It is all about doing the healthy thing first. If I have learned nothing else it is that this is going to be hard. If it wasn't hard then we would just be able to lose weight in a short amount of time. It takes a long time to put the weight on and it will take a long time to take the weight off. I am strong and determined to do what I have to do even though sometimes I may not like it to make sure I am healthy and that I am showing my son that I can lose weight and I can be my better self. It just takes determination and will power. I am strong and I can do this. I hope my son sees that even though the journey is life long and the decisions are tough that it can and will be successful if you just believe that you can do it.