SP Premium
FIREFLY_SECRETS
50,000-59,999 SparkPoints 55,581
SparkPoints
 

Here we go (again!)

Voted Popular Blog Post: View All Popular Posts

Wednesday, April 17, 2019

So frustrated as I enter this week's information. Two years ago I lost over 110 pounds and I swore I'd never put it back on again. Well, I didn't gain all 110, but I did gain well over half of it. I was worried about maintaining the weight loss, but apparently, not worried or careful enough. I've been asking myself what I was thinking or doing - why didn't I do something when I gained 20 back - or 30 - or even 40. What was I thinking as I had to buy double digit pant sizes again!

It's coming off again - but much slower. I have no one to blame but myself, and ice cream. Determined to lose it again this time. I've been "trying" to lose it again for the last 6 months, but I haven't been serious about it. Time to get serious again like before. Trying to think of it as more of a life style, and make different choices this time around so that once it's gone again I can do better with maintaining it.
Fingers Crossed!
Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
  • SIMPLY_JAE
    You can do this..never give up on you
    120 days ago
  • MAHEDAGO
    you got this
    emoticon
    175 days ago
  • no profile photo CAROSLIMMER2
    Well done for facing up to the gain. Very best wishes. You know you can do it!
    177 days ago
  • no profile photo BONDMANUS2002
    Absolutely
    180 days ago
  • LIBERALGODDESS
    You can do it.
    181 days ago
  • no profile photo BONDMANUS2002
    Absolutely
    181 days ago
  • RUTHIE254
    You can do this. A number of years back, I lost weight and gained a bunch back. I feel now that my mistake was that I stopped weighing myself every day. I weigh myself EVERY SINGLE MORNING now, and I intend to keep doing that. I know that people say "don't weigh yourself every day" -- but it's my best way of being accountable. That number doesn't lie. In regard to weight LOSS -- I do NOT care if the number fluctuates or stays the same every day for X-days. Doesn't bother me. If I look at that number every day, I can't kid myself. And if that number starts inching up, I have to own it. And you're right -- it's about LIFESTYLE. Don't beat yourself up too much, and hang in there.
    182 days ago
  • ICHABODNY
    I'm there myself and have literally had the same thoughts as you. It's not simple. I go to OA now and it is very helpful. SP is wonderful with encouragement but having an eating disorder is not something you can mentally will away nor can you say to yourself, "You have to do this [moderation, eating better, etc]". I am morbidly obese and have an eating disorder. I found this to be step one. The largest challenge is emotional eating and binging. If this is a life-long roller coaster spanning over 100 lbs each time, it's definitely something you just can't mentally change. It's a step by step, life-long process and you have to give yourself a break. It's ok that you've gone off the rail and you feel a failure. You take it one day at a time. Your largest challenge is not staying consistent nor learning how to eat but admitting that you can't control yourself. It's difficult for many to understand that in the moments you lose control, saying what you should be doing is just not going to help. I don't have a higher power as a Christian being Pagan but I have found my higher power. I struggle with it but use this and it is very helpful. It doesn't excuse you but gives you another perception rather then beating yourself up. It can help. Either way, it's hard. I know it. You are able to find control within yourself with time and patience. Hugs. You did amazing to catch yourself here and it's not going to be easy but don't be overwhelmed. Just go one day at a time.
    182 days ago
  • SCHRADER5
    I just read and article on moderation with healthy eating & excercise. Very good read. For me. Dieter all my life but never did it for my health. I am today! Keep pushing!🙋
    182 days ago
  • RONNIMICHELLE
    This research is really good: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed
    /16002825

    You can do it! Instead of saying that you've gained back more than half, tell yourself that you have kept off nearly half. And, you have turned your boat around. Slow weight loss is excellent. Keep going!
    182 days ago
  • ELFISHER56
    I don't know your age, but as someone who is older, if I gain it back I have to work out double to get stuff to move again. I can't eat anything sweet and I can't eat any of the white stuff as in bread, potatoes, pasta, sugar or rice. Don't worry, you'll work hard to get the weight off.
    emoticon
    182 days ago
  • no profile photo BONDMANUS2002
    Keep going
    182 days ago
  • RUNNNERR
    There are so many who have been in the same position to varying degrees. You are NOT alone. We are all works in progress - you can do this again!
    182 days ago
  • UNICORN280
    It's going to be okay - the first step is knowing you have to change behavior. The next is coming back to SparkPeople every day and checking in with us - we Sparkers support your effort and will be there when you need us! Congratulations on your decision to try again - you're going to do well and the extra weight will disappear soon! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    183 days ago
  • NEWME1N2019
    I too am in the same boat so I know how you feel. I lost 44lbs and fell off the wagon and gained 30lbs back. I have been trying to get back on that wagon and not succeeding. I need to also get serious and get this done. I know I can do because I have done it before. emoticon
    183 days ago
  • PEACHESNOW
    once you realize you NEED and want to make a change - it's so much easier - it's not how long the journey takes - it's being able to understand and make the journey .. you're fine.
    183 days ago
  • PEACHESNOW
    once you realize you NEED and want to make a change - it's so much easier - it's not how long the journey takes - it's being able to understand and make the journey .. you're fine.
    183 days ago
  • PEACHESNOW
    once you realize you NEED and want to make a change - it's so much easier - it's not how long the journey takes - it's being able to understand and make the journey .. you're fine.
    183 days ago
  • IRISHGAL46
    You can do this!
    183 days ago
  • NOLAHORSERIDER
    At least you are able to grab those boot straps and get back on the journey. Way to go. You can do this. Take those baby steps and keep moving forward.

    Wishing you well on your journey!

    SparkCheers,
    >Nola
    183 days ago
  • VERNAJ3
    So you've joined our club!!! This is a large club. We don't like this club!! Let's all band together and quit this club. The only way to get out of this club and never have to rejoin it is to change our lifestyle but I bet you've already figured that out. It seems that it's harder to RElose the weight we Regained but you can do it, I can do it emoticon one ounce at a time.

    I've reached my goal TWICE and regained every ounce, this time I'm doing it it a little differently. Other times I cut sweets out completely, but sweets, especially ice cream, are my nemesis so I am allowing myself to have one serving of sweets once in a while. It's a battle but so far so good, I'm able to have one serving and leave it at that.

    I'm older now and hopefully wiser. Let's do this folks, we can and will change our lifestyle and that means we will lose and MAINTAIN our loss.
    183 days ago
  • PAMBACH
    Thank you for being so brutally honest! That had to be hard. As a maintainer for 3 and 1/2 years I can tell you it ain't easy! You have to work to keep it off. I still track everything every day. I have had to up my exercise game because of age changes. And you must look at it as a complete life style change. Decide, "How bad do I want this" and then work for it. You can do this!!!
    183 days ago
  • no profile photo BONDMANUS2002
    Absolutely
    184 days ago
  • EO4WELLNESS
    Welcome back. You can do it again, as you know you have already enjoyed success. As I was reading your blog, I was thinking the portion about "ice cream" really proves to me how important portion control really is in any one person's story.
    184 days ago
  • MTN_KITTEN
    I too lost 100+ pounds to then lose sight of my goals for myself.

    Losing weight is more about changing lifestyles, relationship with food and putting yourself … first.

    Lesson learned … now to get the weight back off and keep it offffffffffff.
    emoticon
    184 days ago
  • TRIMMAMA2
    You are in good company, I've been there and done that! However, this time around, I'm learning that weight loss is not a goal, but a lifestyle! Eating more nutritious food, drinking plenty of water, and moderate exercise is working for me and the weight is coming off. Just take it one day, one meal, and one exercise at a time and you will be where you want to be! Blessings! emoticon
    184 days ago
  • KYRRDIS
    Keep going. You can do it again. I fell off the wagon big-time after I uprooted my life to help my parents in Florida. Regained the weight, but now it's going down again. Every effort to benefit your health will pay off in the long run.
    184 days ago
  • YOUCANDOITNANA
    We can do this. I know what it feels like to be discouraged about the very slow process of losing weight as others drop pounds easily by making the smallest change, but let's stick with it. I am recently retired and nearly 70 and let's do this for our health. One day at a time.
    184 days ago
  • SAMIAM2323
    I did the same things. Lost over 100 pounds and gained it all back. Don't give up
    184 days ago
  • VICKI27655
    Good luck! emoticon
    184 days ago
  • 2DAWN4
    I have been there myself! You can do this!
    184 days ago
  • JANROLG
    Good blog!
    184 days ago
  • JAMER123
    I hear you loud and clear. I lost #111 and have gained about 20 back. And, like you, I have been "trying" to get it off again. Of course, the bad habits must be changed to good habits So all I can say is................ ]
    emoticon emoticon emoticon And we CAN do it! We HAVE done it!
    184 days ago
  • DEEGIRL50
    Believe me, I understand. I've never been fortunate enough to lose over 100 pounds, but I have lost and gained many times. Good luck. Let this be the last time you need to lose weight.
    emoticon
    184 days ago
  • GRLTAZ
    You got this ! It helps to remember your "why". I got rid of 130 lbs and have maintained 110-115 of it for 4 years now but it is always a struggle. If I relax, more weight comes back and I FEEL it on my body. I do not like pain and I do not like taking drugs so I am working harder along with you !
    184 days ago
  • JSTETSER
    Go girl, GO!
    184 days ago
  • no profile photo BONDMANUS2002
    Absolutely
    184 days ago
  • AQUAGIRL08
    emoticon
    184 days ago
  • AAAACK
    Right? I'm with ya. Regained some of my loss, and trying to stop. I'm struggling to find that successful mindset again. The one where I don't eat my way through the night. The one where I have a definite mind/hand/mouth connection that what I put in my hand/shopping cart/pantry and then in my mouth, really DOES matter. It really does add up. On the scale, in my clothes, in my energy levels.

    I have to find that mindset again! I hope you find yours! Thanks for sharing. It's nice to know I'm not the only one.
    184 days ago
  • ANNE2468
    Years ago I would lose 30 and gain it all back but I was about 40lbs over what I should have weighed. Still it mattered and I would be so angry at myself for not stopping when I gained back 5. I still wonder what it is in our mind that does not stop us when we start regaining. All the work and effort and the happiness that comes with looking and feeling great and still we will regain . Glad you at least have gotten a grip now and you will take control again. During menopause I gained a ton of weight and went way up to 265. I lost 105 16 yrs ago and only recently due to a health issue I regained a little over twenty. I now lost 6 and am continuing on. When I lost the 105 I finally did make life style changes especially in my meal planning. For me my weight is so connected to my happiness. I know I always want to be in control and not let any piece of food run my life. You can do the same. Wish you success.
    184 days ago
  • PAMBROWN62
    For me, this time, creating a healthier lifestyle made all the difference. That and allowing myself time. In the past I always wanted the weight gone immediately and became frustrated when that didn’t happen. On this journey I decided to accept that age (I was 62 when I startered) and my health condition wasn’t a recipe for fast weight loss. So I just started eating more healthy foods, walking, a little strength training and the weight began to come off, it was slow but I remained determined to keep moving forward. After all the time is going to pass anyway so I might as well use it getting myself into a better place. Because of this I am now just 15 pounds away from goal. I want that to happen this year but, if it doesn’t, it will bd okay because slow and steady can, and in my case, is winning the race. I wish you much success as you resume your weight loss journey. Remember, baby steps can and do add up to big results.
    185 days ago
  • KSNANA2
    You caught it before you gained all the weight back, so congrats! And you know what to do so just clean out the house of anything not good for you and set up your surroundings for success. I am wanting something here today, but nothings in the house is sweet, so I dodged that problem!
    185 days ago
  • TERRIJ7
    Good for you for getting back to it and sticking to it. It only gets more difficult as we age, so there's no better time than now to take the bull by the horns.
    185 days ago
  • JUNETTA2002
    Thank you for sharing. emoticon
    185 days ago
  • MURRELLS
    Thank you for sharing your blog w/us. I can relate to your weight loss/regain/trying to lose again. I love Ice Cream too...my fave splurge. I just started my food plan on March 4th. I decided I had to cut sugar, junk food & takeout out of my life. It's been 48 days that I've stuck to this...I make sure I have plenty of fresh fruit salad in my fridge to satisfy my sweet tooth. One bite of sugar is too much for me...the entire thing is not enough. I was discouraged that I only lost one lb. this week...but a week ago I lost 11 lbs. in 10 days. This is a bumpy road, but it's still better than indulging w/all the wrong foods. Good luck staying on track. You've done this before & you can do it again.
    185 days ago
  • DLJONES50
    Your blog was just what I needed today! I lost 40 pounds several years ago and I have gained it back plus a few extra pounds. I have let life overcome me and have neglected my health. I woke up today and decided today was the day to get back on track and get this weight off again and keep it off! It is always a great feeling to come back to the support and encouragement of the Sparkpeople family! Best wishes.....We Can Do This! emoticon emoticon
    185 days ago
  • MORAVIANSTAR
    You certainly are not alone! I read somewhere that good health takes constant vigilance - not something that I wanted to know, but it's the truth. Every time I start to get sick and tired of being careful all the time and see the weight creeping back up, I think about that and somehow, it makes me feel a little better. I just have to keep it in the back of my mind all the time - and I don't. But I do get back on again when I slip off, and have learned to take heart in the "getting back on" instead of beating myself up about the "slipping off". That's progress, right?!
    185 days ago
  • TERIBEAR68
    If you look at my track record here you'll see plenty of "starting over" posts. If nothing else I'm a poster child for persistence. This time around I think I have my head around the "lifestyle change" rather than the diet mentality. I'm 327 days of consistently recording what I eat, good bad or ugly. I've lost somewhere around 25 pounds. I try not to get discouraged about how slowly that is and realize that those numbers mean I've lost an average of 2 pounds a month for the entire time that I've been here this round. You can do this. We're here to support you. Onward!
    185 days ago
  • NEBRASKANNIE
    I can put on 50 lbs really fast from the drugs that keep me alive to gripe about it, but I took it off more than once, and I know I can do it again. It's been a journey learning self discipline and exploring the reasons behind the gains other than the drugs. You've already done it once and you can do it again. Use the tools on this site cause it'll help you figure out whats different this time around. It's always something! Great work!
    185 days ago
  • 1DAY-ATA-TIME
    I've been there too.
    You've done it before and you'll do it again. I've been maintaining for two year and discovered that maintenance is much more challenging than losing. I wish you the best!
    185 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment
    Member Comments Page (105 total): 
    1


    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.