A little nudge is sometimes all you need!
Friday, April 12, 2019
I had a friend tell me the other day that I inspired her. She was so inspired by me running my first marathon that she decided to start up running.
She just completed her first half marathon last weekend.
It was very nice to receive the compliment from her. To know that I was her reason for starting up running that now she has a passion for the sport herself. But instead of feeling so proud of myself I felt ashamed. I even felt a little jealous of her running.....
How can I inspire someone so much that I can't inspire myself?
I have a huge passion for running. It started for me when I picked back up the sport in 2008. I started running races and went from 5k's to 5 miles. Then 10k's to half marathons. To then finally running a full marathon. I was on top of the world!
But last fall something changed. I started doing other exercises instead of running. I was finding myself not liking my runs and not really enjoying it anymore. Fall came and gone and winter set in. My running went to almost none at all. What happened to me?
After hearing from this friend I felt like I wasn't worthy of someone being inspired by me. I felt like a failure.
I am trying to pull myself out of the pity party and getting back to running. But since I ran little to no running fall and winter, I really lost a lot. I lost my drive. I lost my focus. I lost my speed and stamina. I ran 26.2 miles and now running 3 feels like so much work.
I know it will come back... just like riding a bike right! But it will take time. Just like it will take time to lose this weight. I need to find my patience again. I need to find that same drive I had before. It isn't lost... it is in there. Just buried deep waiting to be found again.