I have been here on Spark off and on for maybe 13 years. I lost track a long, long time ago. Every time I have taken a break and left for awhile, I would come back and find familiar friends and that is why it kind of feels like my home.
In 2018 I got really serious once again to get in shape and clean up my food choices. I lost a few pounds and then got really sick with a couple of teeth that were really infected. It took me a few months to get this under control and in October I finally got back on track. I worked really hard to follow my program, counting calories, exercising, eating healthy, and blogging. I took many baby steps forward and I credit my Sparkfriends, especially @Lifechangz for being so supportive. Jules has been like such a great Spark Partner for all of these years. Through so many life up and downs she has been here for me and I hope I have been the same for her.
In Feb this year I had a huge "ah ha" moment when everything that I have been learning and all the struggles I have had just came together and made sense for me. I am pretty sure this happens for a lot of people, and I hope that it happens eventually for everyone. Using the cognitive behavior therapy in the Beck Diet Solution - I have been able to finally get my binge eating under control and I have changed many thoughts and behaviors that have gotten in the way of my success. In March this year I finally gave up sugar and processed carbs and this has been life changing for me. I feel so healthy and full of energy, and my weight is starting to slowly evaporate into thin air.
I guess everyone has to find their own secret to getting things to click. For me it was an instant realization that my brain was always going to want to take me back to how life was before I started making changes. As soon as I understood this, I was able to come up with a way to recognize when my brain was pulling on me and then I knew to just talk to myself and let my brain know that I am in charge now and I am doing things differently. During March and now into April I have been able to feel all my cravings quiet down. I have been able to exercise consistently adding minutes and steps and weights to my exercise program. I have been able to stop counting calories and eating appropriately by just listening to my body of when it is hungry and when it is almost full. I have been drinking my water, getting enough sleep, slow down anxiety that has been a source of throwing me off course for years. So all in all I would say when it clicks, it is like a miracle.
What I know to be true is that all of this has been here in front of me for years. It is exactly what Spark Guy talks about in his book. It is the background of the whole SparkPeople program. Baby steps -- 2 steps forward, fall down 6 times, get up 7. It is here with all of the Spark Teams. It is here with finding wonderful, supportive Spark Friends. All of it is part of what makes us successful. And it was all definitely here in the Beck team and studying the cognitive behavior therapy. I would highly recommend this to anyone that has not been able to stick with their program for a long time.
So I have nothing huge to say other than I am hugely grateful for the friendships and the support and all of the learning that has helped me succeed. I still have a way to go to get to my goal weight, but I have no doubt that I will achieve this in the near future. In the meantime I have found my forever healthy plan for the rest of my life. And I have joined another group that caters to women, supporting healthy weight loss, living your best life, and keep learning. It felt like a big decision for me to make and I know it was a good one for me. I hope that everyone is able to find what they are looking for and supports them.