Giving Up The Scale for Lent
Sunday, March 10, 2019
As of last Wednesday, the scale is going into the closet for the next 40 days because I'm giving up weighing for Lent.
I know it sounds crazy and I know that "the scale is not the enemy". I've been basically sedentary since I fell. My balance was off. My measurements show that I am losing inches but the scale is going up as expected after coming off keto. It's mostly water and a reaction to my body being in starvation calorie mode for a month. I knew it was coming. Intellectually I know all of that. Hasn't kept me from getting on the damned thing EVERY morning for the last several weeks. Measured Tuesday night, I lost a half inch at least in every measurement but the stupid scale said I had gained 7 pounds since Friday. I needed to do what I did to heal my brain BUT unfortunately some disordered eating thoughts/behaviors are coming back into play because of the fluctuation of those numbers on that digital display. Time for the scale to go away for awhile. The 40 days of Lent seem to be a good time for that to happen.
I'm not changing anything else I'm doing. Still tracking and working the program. Just losing the scale or awhile. I'm giving it too much power over how I think I'm doing and that's a path that doesn't lead to anywhere good. That is a path I will not go down. When it stops being a tool and starts becoming an obstacle it's time for it to GO! My brain is doing better. Now I have to let my emotional stability recover by staying off the scale while I reintroduce more carbs and more activity.
It's been 3 days and I resist the urge every day to open the closet and inquire of the scale how my day is going to go. Screw that. That's not normal. Next time I plan on getting on a scale is at the doctor's office in late April. Tomorrow I'm going to get to lace my skates up again for the first time in weeks and weeks. My balance is back to where I can actually get back to doing stairs purposefully rather than clinging to the rails like a drunk. I am ready to get on with getting my life back and that doesn't require the scale to tell me how well I'm doing. Listening to my body, being mindful, moving for the sheer joy of it, these are the things I'm focusing on for Lent. And I think that's good.