Week 1 Recap Looking Forward To Week 2...
Friday, December 07, 2018
I quickly realized I definitely don't have enough to say to justify doing a daily a blog LOL! I think I will try to do 2 check ins a week though, one at the end of the week and then somewhere in the middle. The reason being is I know me well enough to know I can let an entire awful week slip by me before I even know which end is up LOL!
Days 1 & 2 were strong like I mentioned. Day 3 was outstanding as well, but then I just reverted right back to my old binging ways. Days 4 & 5 were completely binge city, day 6 wasn't as bad but definitely not pretty! Day 7 ended up with me back on track.
As I look forward to week 2 (my weeks are kind of strange because of the day I started on...so my weeks are going to run Friday-Thursday... I guess it spices things up LOL) and even onto the rest of the month there are going to be some things going on that will probably not be the best food days.
December 7th (today) I am going to a wedding. The good news is despite my friend doing her best, there really aren't many vegetarian options. It's mostly going to be bread and some veggies from the sound of it but that is more than fine with me. More reasons not to run amok. It is also going to be a short wedding, not a party into the night kind of wedding, so that is definitely not that big of an issue.
December 10th I am going with my old trainee (who sadly didn't make it off training but we are still buddies) to happy hour at the Cheesecake Factory. I already know what I am having, and I will not lie to you, it is going to be a little bit over maintenance but my goal is to take some home and have that be all that I have that day. We will see if I survive it.
December 11th is Disneyland with my brother, but that shouldn't be too crazy. Assuming I don't binge those days usually wash out as even with the added walking.
December 15th I am taking my BFF to Knott's Berry Farm because I can get in for free and bring 1 friend free for Law & Fire Appreciation days (dispatchers count too, yay me!). Again assuming I don't binge I can probably manage a maintenance day.
My family and I aren't big on holidays (please don't faint LOL), and I am working Christmas overtime, but I choose not to participate in the pot lucks at work. There's honestly 3 reasons, and I'm not afraid to admit them to all of you. The first reason is I work with a bunch of turds, and I can not lie to you, it really annoys me to pretend like we are a big happy family a couple times a year when I work with some really nasty people. That turns me off to no end. The last 2 pot lucks I participatee in I ended up with meat in my mouth (that's what she said LOL), and I was not happy about it. The 2nd one really set me off cuz the person who brought it (her girlfriend made it) said specifically there was no meat and I ended up eating a small piece of ham in macaroni salad of all the things (typically not a meaty dish), and I am still traumatized. I initially passed by it and she insisted I try it, that's the only reason I asked if there was meat in it cuz I try to be quiet about those things. She said there wasn't and sadly she was wrong. And the 3rd reason which I have not and will not explain to my coworkers is pot lucks are a trigger for me. I have a huge issue with not only binge eating but my all or nothing attitude. Since I find it nearly impossible to track pot luck food accurately it turns it into a free for all in my mind and that is dangerous for me.
When I initially lost 90 pounds I worked at my current job, I did not participate in pot luck and I ate the food I brought on a daily basis. I ignored all the treats (I had an occasional donut and just tracked it), the "chow runs" (where they order dinner out) and I just did what I needed to do. I really need to get back in the mindset of doing what I need to do.
With that said this clearly doesn't mean I'm going to stop living. As you saw from my recap of some adventurous food days that are coming up I will absolutely indulge and participate in life and the yummy food that comes with it. But I'd rather have an amazing trip to Cheesecake Factory with a friend be the reason I'm a little over on my calories than having a binge on crappy pot luck food.
Going to do my best to stay on track this week even if on track means going slightly over calories a day or two. Anything at this point is better than binging.