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As long as I'm breathing...

Friday, November 30, 2018



It's not too late, as long as I'm breathing. A friend texted me today and told me that his mom passed away. I, unfortunately, know what that feels like. I lost my mom in January of this year. I miss her more than I can say. But, I know that she is with God. So, she's just fine.

I know that she wanted me to lose weight and to take care of myself, so did my spiritual mother. I try some days. But, other days I don't.

After the colonoscopy, I thought "Okay. Now, you have a chance to press the RESET button. You have a clean colon. Don't dirty it up or clutter it up, again. But, as soon as all of that gas was gone, I began eating what I should not eat. The Bible speaks of those who want to do right and do just the opposite. I know that God's mercy is everlasting. And, if I ask His forgiveness, He is faithful to forgive me.

I just want to turn that corner and do a new thing. I mean really commit to a new thing.

I know that as long as I have breath in my body, I can turn. I can do a new thing. I am praying for the strength to do so.

I can't blame the stress of the move. I can't blame the stress of my son's situation. I can't blame my daughter's anxious moments. I can't blame my grief. I can't blame the pettiness on my job. I just can't... not anymore.

It's not fair to me to keep doing this.

It's like a huge part of my life is in suspended animation. It's just on hold. I can't do.... I can't go.... I can't participate in....

It's ridiculous. I'm tired of it.

So, here I am one more time.

I am getting back on track. And, I am not going to cloak myself in shame and embarrassment. Those things are too heavy for me to carry.

Hallelujah!

Thank You, Jesus!!!

Praise Your Holy Name!!!!
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  • CAKAROO
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    891 days ago
  • JANS-JOURNEY
    You can do it remember you can get lots of support here from Sparkfriends to help you when you are struggling.
    Sorry to hear about your mom - I lost mine 4 years ago January and it threw me in a tailspin. I have found my way back and you can also.
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    893 days ago
  • KITTYHAWK1949
    I like your pictures. Remember that slow and steady wins the race. This is my 3rd time trying to get to goal but it is the last time. I over eat at times but then I just get back on my plan which is eat within calorie range, drink water and exercise which has been the hardest piece of the puzzle. I tried a lot of things and found the one I like best so do regular is water aerobics which I'm lucky to have available at my gym. Don't be too hard on yourself. Read the articles as they have a lot of good info.
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    893 days ago
  • 97MONTY
    You can do it. One day at a time
    893 days ago
  • JUNETTA2002
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    893 days ago
  • SPICY23
    You can do this. Start small and be kind to yourself. The habits will build.

    Peace and Care
    893 days ago
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