Fall - season of changes
Tuesday, October 23, 2018
Fall has always been my favorite time of year. The cooler fresh air and beautiful colors.
I have been battling depression for quite a while now and have slipped back into using food as my comfort -- emotional eating. It started out with a "treat" (aka junk) now an again and because it didn't affect the scale somehow that turned into a green light to keep at it. But I knew what I was eating now, compared to the clean eating before, was horrible for me. At some point cravings started again for the french fries or maple donut, or something equally as bad. With this came a lot of self loathing and negativity. My energy levels are low and I hit a patch of not caring...feeling beat down.
I want to feel better, sleep better and have more energy. I need to work on strengthening my back since injuring it in a car accident last month. I do not think that i have ever actually worked on nutrition and fitness together at the same time. It seems to have always been one or the other...but I know now that I need to work on both at the same time for full benefit.
Over the past year I have also realized that there is far more to this than just losing weight on the scale. There is other healing to do inside my body - and mind. Often times I let my mind sabotage my achievements. I need to work on reining that in.
I know this journey will take time. I will get anxious and feel not good enough..but I am also a strong person.