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Wednesday, October 17, 2018

Like a thousand other people in a thousand other places I am stopping life for a few minutes to try and figure out what I'm doing. I'm sitting here at my desk completely overwhelmed with shame and frustration at what I've done to myself over the last few months. I now weigh 50# more than the end of last year..I've been diagnosed with a lung disease and am on steroids ..I am retiring next February..and I'm still grieving over the death of my love. I'm in the process of change. I'm exhausted. I'm distracted. I have fooled myself into believing that medication has caused the weight gain. I love the upbeat posts by people who still have hope..but right now I'm not a participant. So maybe I'll be back tomorrow and start again
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    I have missed you and do wish you would stop by again. You do have so much to live for and mean a lot to so many people. Depression and grief is hard but you needn't walk through it alone.
    798 days ago
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    Come back tomorrow- read the upbeat posts. Do that again the next day. You will want to participate soon enough- you don’t have to push it. Be kind to yourself- it’s part of the process.
    943 days ago
    You're in my thoughts my friend. Never give up on yourself. I'm cheering for you.
    943 days ago
    You sure do have a lot going on! Don’t give up just yet so much more lies ahead of you! You can do it
    943 days ago
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    You have a lot on your plate, just getting through missing someone is tough enough. I'd just work on getting healthy, make small changes to improve your body and manage these next months with the Holidays as best you can. Set yourself to just do better for yourself. I'll be praying for you and sending good thoughts your way.

    943 days ago
  • KAREN608
    I'm still mourning the loss of my love, and weight had crept up, but no sickness got me, yet I feel for you. The last thing you want to think about is healthy eating, yet in the long run, you will feel much better for it. Don't give up, take the first step.
    943 days ago
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