So, so close!
Wednesday, October 17, 2018
Stepped on the scale today and have lost a total of 234 pounds. 234 POUNDS!!!
I don't think that has really sunk in my head yet as often times when I see my reflection in the mirror, I see the me of the past. More and more now I am seeing the me I have become over these past ten years. Yes, it has taken me ten years to reach the weight I am now.
I have not used diet pills. No fad diets. No quick fixes, which seems would be apparent with the length of time this weight loss has taken me but people still ask about it so thought I'd add it here. No surgery. No starvation or fasting.
No, just me changing the way I eat, the way I view food as a fuel source for my body and not something to mindlessly gobble down while watching TV. I got active too. A dear friend shared Sparks with me many years ago. I played around on here for many years, never really getting serious about losing weight. Until I had a Mini Stroke in August of 2009. For many months I sat feeling sorry for myself. Then finally I got mad and got determined. At first it was awful. The restrictions I put on my eating, trying to exercise and getting exhausted after only a few minutes, my back and legs throbbing with pain from the huge amount of excess weight I was carrying. I was my only cheerleader in the beginning. I didn't want to tell anybody I was, "Trying again," to lose weight, for fear of failing again and being told, "I knew you wouldn't follow through. But this time was different. I had the life scared out of me. I didn't want to die from my own poor choices and carrying all this extra weight. That's just what the Doctor told me. 'You are killing yourself and at the rate you are going you have 3 to 5 years left to live at the size you are now." I vowed to lose the weight. I set a target weight of 155 and so I began my long journey to meet that goal.
So I started weighing my food on a little food scale. I measured out my portions. I learned about portion sizes and good foods versus bad foods. Which foods were nutritious and which foods to avoid. Heck, I'm still learning. Losing weight isn't a one size fits all deal. What works for some wont work for others. What I found is with portion control and becoming active the weight pretty much comes off naturally for me.
A dear friend gifted me a Fitbit many years ago. I have used it daily since. On my bad days I walk right around ten thousand steps per day. On my good days, up to thirty-five thousand steps. Heck yea my hips hurt but I do it anyway!
I was moving right along, then last Fall I began not to feel well. I continued exercising and eating up to 1500 calories per day but I began gaining weight. Within two months time I was up 26 pounds, I was frustrated and annoyed and pushed myself harder, nothing helped. Then on Dec 31st 2017 I suffered another Mini Stroke and landed in the ICU for New Years.
Ended up with right side numbness in my arm and leg. Pushed through and dealt with that and still didn't feel well by late Spring. My Neurologist ended up doing some very in depth blood work on me. Then I got the quadruple whammy diagnoses! Hypothyroidism, Raynaud Syndrome, Sjogren's Syndrome and Systemic Sclerderma. That knocked me for a loop and explained a whole lot about the way I had been feeling over the past several months. Thing is, I'd been feeling bad for a very long time but honestly I thought it was just that I was getting older and since I'd never been this age before I didn't know if this was normal or not so I just dealt with the things that were going on. After all I had a normal physical every year and other than cholesterol being just out of normal range I was good, so my General Practitioner said.
Even with all the health issues going on, I didn't stray my course. And since going on medication for my many ails and getting my different levels lowered with the help of diet and appropriate/required medications I have begun losing the weight again. I've lost all I had gained just prior to being diagnosed as well as 7 more.
The thing is, I've never stopped striving to be healthier. It's taken me almost ten years to get to this point but here I am. Eleven pounds away from my goal weight I set ten years ago. I'm pretty proud of myself and yes, I guess I'm tooting my own horn. But you just wait, you haven't heard anything yet, I don't think there will be a horn big enough on the day I finally announce I have hit my goal weight. It will happen, mark my words, it will happen. Like I always say, "Quitting is NOT an option."
If you have read this far, Thank you. My wish for you is a beautiful, happy day. I'm glad that you took the time to read this through and I hope you have drawn strength and encouragement from my words.
Main thing is, love yourself, believe in the power you have within you to achieve the goals you set for yourself. Don't give yourself a time limit. Reach out when you are struggling and know, I am here for you should you need a Spark Friend to talk to about your own journey.