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It's been a while.

Friday, October 05, 2018

It's been a really tough year.

My "best friend" stopped speaking to me in November after I told her about some really personal and heartbreaking experiences I had been through. Some friend.

In January I told my husband I wanted a divorce.

By Mid-March I was in my own place.

By June I had started seeing a man I saw real potential with. We have the same values, similar interests and could talk for hours without getting bored of one another. In July an anonymous person started sending him emails containing vague but scandalous comments about me. We tried to make it work but it broke his trust in me. The emails are still happening even though he broke up with me on Labor Day. It's been an exhausting and emotional summer: I went from being truly happy for the first time in years to sinking back into a mire of depression, but I'm finding that I have the most incredibly supportive friends that have my back.

Through this incredibly stressful period I've still managed to keep off at least 100 lbs. Today I sit at 173.

I'm tired, and my heart hurts. But I've kept healthy.

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  • SMILINGEYES2
    It is sad how one’s tongue is like a spark that can build into a destructive fire. Probably another person wanted him and saw this as a means to drive a wedge between you.

    You are amazing not resorting to emotional eating trying to stuff feelings. Hope you find a better man who will be there for you. In the meantime you are at a better place.
    1018 days ago
  • ADVENTURESEEKER
    Big hugs to you!
    1021 days ago
  • PIPPAMOUSE
    That is an incredibly tough year. Im so sorry you had to go through any of it. emoticon
    1021 days ago
  • TALULAX-
    emoticon Take time for you...heal...and I am here for you always for anything. Be gentle with yourself! emoticon
    1022 days ago
  • no profile photo CD13002992
    So grateful you checked in with your fellow Sparkers. Very proud of your grace under pressure and your determination to keep healthy despite the stressful year. Kudos to you my dear!
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    1022 days ago
  • KAREN_EDMONDS
    It is hard to even imagine all that you have been through! At least you know who your true friends are! Time to focus on you! Reminder, you don't need a partner to make you happy. Focus on friends to help you through!
    1022 days ago
  • HMBROWN1
    So sorry that you have had a rough time! I hope that you have a better finish to your year.
    1023 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    HUGS and so sorry for all you've gone thru.
    1023 days ago
  • GARYLHYDE
    That should say love you not live you.
    1023 days ago
  • GARYLHYDE
    First and foremost you need to live you, forget about others right now. Once you truly love yourself, you will find the right partner. It will just happen and nothing anyone says will break that bond. Good luck.
    1023 days ago
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