I have been feeling a little better since I last posted. However, the depression seems to be a roller coaster as I process some stuff. While I am doing a little better I am still dealing with the inflammation in my body. Also, while my head is clear enough I am trying to figure out better ways to cope when it gets really bad. Which is a tall order...but....I am trying.
I never deal with huge bouts of depression in the summer. Summer is usually my get out of jail free time. So, to be slammed with it now I am finding I am feeling quit frustrated. I want to go. I want to go things. I NEED to do things, but depression says nope.
My appetite is coming back. During this last bout I was drinking homemade smoothies. They were the only things I could keep down or even remotely had desired to try to eat. My blender ended up dying during that time....oh, and for that matter the microwave died too...oh and before that the couch we only sit on a few days a week broke ....oh oh...and the shower head broke too when G's family was in town. All of this all within a month time span! (thank you mercury in retrograde lol) So that was beyond frustrating.
Luckily, we finally got everything properly replaced aside from the couch which they are giving us a run around about the warranty. However, a friend of ours looked at it and said he could help fix it if warranty wont cover it. (For which they were saying this issue....the frame...is a common one in this model. If its a common issue how about you honor the warranty / extended warranty I paid for and IT SAYS IT COVERS or make a better product. grrrsss...the throw down continues!)
G surprised me with a Nutribullet Rx today. I went to get the mail and the box was sitting on the porch with my name on it. I am excited to give it a try! I had a little one serving blender to do my smooties in. It did a great job for years..until it died mid smoothie. So, this is a huge upgrade. Supposedly it makes hot soups too. This should be interesting.
This morning I managed to get a 15 minute walk in. I had to take it easy because I had a lot of chores and work for today. I wanted to be sure I had the energy to do them. Lots and lots and lots of laundry, strip the bed, dishes / daily kitchen stuff, plus work etc etc etc. Blech. We will see how I feel after dinner. I may take Voss for a walk. I am trying to push myself to get back at it without over doing it. I just feel like if I over do it it will domino back into the depression hole. So, I am taking it easy while still pushing.
So that's my update.
I do have mini goals:
-15 minute workout (slowly working up to my norm)
-Focusing on my healing my head and my body.
-Finding a plan for when my depression does get bad...so it doesn't feel like it is chaos. (though G swears our life doesn't turn to chaos I feel like it does.)
Right now I am just floating a bit and treading water until I can fully get back to swimming. As my dad always said, "Adjust your sails." I am...little by little. Because life isn't perfect and almost always comes with a detour.
I hope everyone is well!