I have to say, I absolutely HATE the word diet but not for the reasons most people do. I hate that word because I can't "go on a diet" because I am already ON one! That's right, the word diet, according to www.merriam-webs
, "The word diet first appeared in English in the 13th century. Its original meaning was the same as in modern English, “habitually taken food and drink.” But diet was used in another sense too in the Middle and early modern English periods to mean “way of living.” This is, in fact, the original meaning of diet’s Greek ancestor diaita, which is derived from the verb diaitasthan, meaning “to lead one’s life.” In Greek, diaita, had already come to be used more specifically for a way of living prescribed by a physician, a diet, or other regimen."
So, going back to ancient Greece, a diet is how one leads their life. This brings me to my point, if a diet is the way I lead my life, then to get to the life I WANT to be leading, I need to change the way I currently live. For me, to lose the last 49 pounds I want to lose, this means learning how to eat more in line with the lifestyle I want and changing other patterns which have become ingrained in my current lifestyle. I have to move more -- and jot just from my bed to the couch or the bench outside or even to my truck. It means learning how to control the size of my portions and not going back for more. I have to set in my mind and body that I won't eat after a certain time and will try to start getting better sleep. These are going to be the most difficult things for me since I wasn't moving much due to over all pain.
Now that I have had both knees replaced, had a massive rotator cuff tear in my right shoulder repaired and my PCP and pain management doctor are trying to find solutions for my lower back and neck, moving is much less painful and I really have no excuse for not becoming more active. I know people say the last 10, 20, 30 or 40 pounds can be the hardest to lose but, hey, I've come a LONG way from the 325 pounds I was just 15 years ago so I know I can lose the last 49 as long as I keep my eyes on my goal and not get upset if I have little setbacks. In the long run, my body and my mind will thank me for losing the 175 pounds I had to lose when I first joined Sparkpeople. I also know that I couldn't have come this far without the encouragement I have found here and the accountability I have in my trackers.
I admit that I have become depressed and despondent and left this site alone quite often; however, I have always come back and worked on resetting my lifestyle (and my mind, but that's also a part of my lifestyle) to be more in line with who and what I want. to be. I'm not going to lie and say losing the 116 pounds (so far) has been easy, it's been far from that. But one thing I've found is I am not a stress, boredom or depression eater, quite the opposite, I eat when I'm happy, when my Bipolar Disorder is in massive manic euphoria. I eat when I'm watching a really good or favorite movie or television series. It's not because I'm hungry, it's more, I think, due to feeling safe. I've been on the streets many times and you really don't get much to eat if you can't get to a place that is feeding the homeless and sometimes even that isn't a guarantee of a meal. I've gotten used to eating when I can -- when food is available and then I eat a lot because my lifestyle has been used to not having food available. Now that that part of my life has changed, it's time to get my mind to accept it so that changing my lifestyle matches what I want it to be.