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In a funk again........

Wednesday, July 25, 2018

In a few days, my younger son is moving out to start medical school. I am very excited for him but also sad that he is moving out. I am much closer to him than my older son. I don't know why that is, when my oldest was my daughter we were close, but the relationship changed after she did and now he is with a partner and I seem to always just be in the way unless they need me. They know I will watch my granddaughter any time they ask me, even though we are all in the same house.
So the past few weeks I have been just in a strange place in my head. One minute I feel great and the next I'm sad. I already take meds and don't want to increase the dose bc that raised my BP. So I'm trying to figure out what to do.
On August 6 my school year starts. Fourth year in high school. Time flies. I hope this year comes with no drama. My night time job will start on August 27 so at least I will have a few weeks to come home after day job and just relax.
So there you have it......I'm in a funk and feel like it's getting worse. I do know that one thing that is bothering me is the fact that I'm lonely. Even though I do many activities I don't have anyone to come home to for a hug. I guess that's one reason why I'll miss my younger son so much, he would always give me a hug when he saw me. I have tried dating and no luck here where I live. I don't want to move away from my granddaughter, so I'm stuck here. I have 10 more years of working before I can retire and would really like to meet someone before then.
So that's about all I can put into words. This mood of mine needs to cheer up if I'm going to get back on track and lose this weight.
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  • KATIE5668
    Ahh..indeed I understand the lonely. And focusing on that will indeed bring you down.
    Keeping busy is important..but knowing what the issue is makes it at least something you can work on and move past. You will be busy with school ..are you working school and a night job?

    As crazy as it sounds..find a song that perks you up..put it on and blast it. Dance to it or just let the music get you going! I used to have that old song...Ain't Nobody Gonna Break My Stride..I would blast it till the guy upstairs called and asked me to turn it down! give the music a try..no sad songs or such..something upbeat and jivy!!

    Take care!!
    909 days ago
    Been there Wendy!! Especially after my GD married so no more being here.

    I had to force myself to get active again. Do you have any single friends or those who aren't, but their mate tends to be out or lol content with the idiot box? Aka TV.

    Not sure you live in an area that may have affordable places to exercise? Gyms, dance, yoga or to learn to paint, an adult education program? Fun to learn a new language, brush up on history, learn a new math skill? Does your local library offer any programs you're interested in? I live in a city of 23,000 and they have stuff going almost nightly. Including on Saturdays a fun art group!!

    The suggestion Susan made is great!! I'm starting training soon on being a senior companion. So many can no longer, or SHOULDNT drive so getting to the stores is an issue.
    910 days ago
  • SUSANM18
    Loneliness is hard. Hopefully, with all your other activities, you will come across someone who has similar interests. Just a suggestion, but if you have a senior center or senior care facility near you, you could volunteer to visit with the seniors. They also need someone to talk to and would enjoy hugs as seniors also miss the power of touch. Susan
    910 days ago
    Good luck
    910 days ago
    Keep pushing forward
    911 days ago
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