I feel like this week was a wash. Even though I got a lot of work outs in I was very anxious to get (ex)Bestie out at the end of the week. Of course she waited until last minute to do EVERYTHING. She was also overwhelmed and would often just sit on her bed dazed while I tossed stuff into boxes. Of the work that was done G and I did most of it because we wanted her OUT. The highlight was when we were finally getting her stuff into the moving truck. I was in the moving truck stacking things, G was running stuff out to the porch and she was running all her stuff in a down pour of rain to me. She was soaked.
When it came time for our good bye I handed her her dog and told her bye. Nothing more...no hugs...no words of wisdom. Bye. Because she waited until last minute her broke down car is still here. So, she will be back around payday (this week) with a tow truck. I told her any time beyond that it WILL get towed and she can get it out of impound. I'm not playing.
The house feels so much better without her being here. She was such a cloud of drama hanging over it. Sunday G and I worked on the yard and our garden because all I wanted to do was focus on something positive. I was tired though both physically and emotionally. I didn't realize how much she impacted me negatively and how much I had to try to block it all.
Right now I am working to untag and delete her presence on my social media. In this very moment her Abuser is in full swing of trying to attack me as well as send jabs my way. I am ignoring it and really find it funny.
Honestly, she wasn't a friend in the first place so no loss here. I know who my real friends are. (ex)Bestie will always be a train wreck because she refuses to work on the things that cause her to be destructive. In return that causes her to be a chameleon so she can fit in with those around her. Due to that she has no idea of who she is. I mean heck her own mother put boundaries in with her along with a handful of her other friends. Her abuser has chased everyone off and only lets few back in who she can benefit from and then chases them off again. Soooo much drama. No thank you!
I am just so glad it is over!
I got most of my workouts in, but I also had a lot of physical activity with the packing / moving. I am back at it right now for week 8.
Not so great. I started off strong and as everything started getting crazy towards the end of the week it all unraveled. I was just too tired to cook or plan or think or care....etc.
I was ok here, but supplemented with coffee and other sugary drinks for energy and to just get liquids in me. I am back to water for week 8.
All week I saw my resting heart rate going up to my disappointment. Obviously it was because I was very anxious to get her gone. Mentally, emotionally, and physically I am just exhausted. However, I am processing and moving on.
Things I feel I can do better
Just get back on track for week 8, which I am. I have a lot to focus on as G's family will be in for the summer in about two weeks. Now that we have the attic apartment there will be a lot more space!
Things are looking up. I just have to not let the events of this past week hit my buttons. Logically all of this is a win for me, but I have buttons that try to tell me otherwise. Now is time to correct that and I am.
I hope everyone is well!