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"PLOT TWIST"! *blink blink blink*

Monday, May 28, 2018

I appreciate the support from my last blog. It's been exactly a month since I had deadly thoughts. In that time, the company that acquired mine eliminated my position and laid off the accounting manager and me. I have signed an agreement and can't speak of it any more.

I've had a difficult couple of weeks, and tried to set up benefits such as Unemployment as well as other assistance (most of which I don't qualify due to my income prior to being laid off.) It's a scary time.

I had stopped logging onto Spark. But I'm ready to pick myself up and start adding a routine to my scramble. I've had some amazing revelations in the past couple of weeks, primarily in how isolated I make myself when I am working full time and have a romantic relationship. I pour myself into those endeavors, and give myself very little space to connect with others or meditate on matters important to me.

This is the third time I've been laid off, starting with the big unemployment boom following the housing crash in 2008. "Third time is a charm," right? I'm trying to take everything I have learned from previous experiences and build something even better this time. It's very challenging for me to speak positively about myself and my accomplishments. While I don't have a degree, I have 20 years of work experience that I need to narrate in a compelling story to take the next step up in my career, instead of falling to the bottom rung of the ladder. I am grateful for my lack of disability and other circumstances that are things other people have to overcome as well. (Please keep a good thought for me, as I do for them.)

A couple of current mantras I'm using:

I read a blog where someone recounted a dad blog who advised to shout "plot twist!," every time something goes wrong, and then move on. Although it was painful at first, I will get through this. May it be the start of an amazing new chapter.

I have reframed my internal dialogue to focus on what I AM good at, what I DO have experience doing, and how I CAN improve to get to a goal. Instead of thinking about what in the job descriptions I can't/haven't done, or thinking of things as being impossible, I ask myself what it would take for it TO BE POSSIBLE. How can I convince someone else to give me the job (if it's one that I want and in a path that is helpful for me.)

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  • JIBBIE49
    503 days ago
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    Love your honesty -- and the strong resilience that comes through -- with this blog. Very best wishes that the doors this twist opens reveal themselves to you soon.

    Gobsmacked with this part, exactly what I've been coming to realize of myself of late too:
    "how isolated I make myself when I am working full time and have a romantic relationship. I pour myself into those endeavors, and give myself very little space to connect with others or meditate on matters important to me."

    Thank you for putting it into words so eloquently!
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    1019 days ago
    I am hoping you are getting into a better place. Be sure to reach out if you need that support. Losing a job can be so rough on our emotions, as well as our lifestyle. Wishing you the very best.
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    1021 days ago
    emoticon emoticon Have faith, there is something waiting for you, just don’t give up!
    1061 days ago
    Instead of reacting to my life I've begun to consciously create it. I'm sure I told you about Abe-Hicks last blog of yours. I hope you've had a chance to listen. The law of attraction works whether we are conscious of it or not and we create everything we are experiencing too, whether we are conscious of it or not. Being on the side of intending for things to happen rather than reacting to things when they happen means you have an advantage. You're a smart and savvy woman and I truly believe that you will figure things out.
    1075 days ago
    Good luck with the job search!!
    1077 days ago
    Plot twist! I always love a good page turner. New mind set from a month ago, positive. It maybe slow going, but the turtle won the race.
    1079 days ago
    May the right opportunity find you at the right time! Being laid off is tough. I'm glad that you're working to stay positive and find the silver linings. I recently read The Joy Plan by Kaia Roman. I highly recommend this book... it has lots of great brain science in it, and some great ideas for changing your mindset and living a more joyous life. I've bought multiple copies of this book and shared with friends... and I've even used ideas from it for challenges/wellness focuses for my BLC team. If you've got a little down time, it would be worth checking out, I think. Sending love and light and well wishes on your journey to the next step!
    1079 days ago
    Wow! This is quite a plot twist! You are in my thoughts and prayers! Good vibes going your way!
    1080 days ago
  • THOMS1
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    1080 days ago
    I like the plot twist concept, it keeps you agile and ready for what is next. I hope you find the position you want and it has the stability your need. emoticon
    1080 days ago
    I loved your blog and hope things turn around for you. Good luck in your search for work. emoticon
    1080 days ago
    Good luck with your job search. My husband's position was eliminated after 28 years with the same company. Trust me, that was a shock. We thought he would retire from there. It wan't just him. They eliminated the position across the whole United States.
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    I completely understand what you mean. Even though as of late, I've just isolated myself period. I really enjoyed your blog and thank you for a new perspective; focussing on the positives. I like the plot twisted concept. Good luck with everything.
    1080 days ago
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