Fresh start...

Sunday, May 6th 2018....this is the day I'm getting back on track. This past week has been a rollercoaster of emotions and crazy fluctuating hormones. I've been having insane cravings for junk food and I've been indulging in every one of them. I even ate cake at a birthday party yesterday and I don't even like cake! It was sugar, it was sweet and it made me feel like crap but for some reason I still indulged. Well enough is enough. I've lost approximately 45 lbs so far with another 45 to go. I will not give in to these rediculous temptations and cravings. My hormones will not control my decisions any longer. I can, I have and I will continue to push forward to a better, healthier me. My daughter needs me to be the healthiest version possible and I'm going to be the best role model by showing her how to take care of yourself first. I actually told myself an excuse last week that I can't believe I came up with. I stayed home from the gym and told myself that it would be better for her to stay home with mommy and play rather than taking her with me to the gym. She stays in child watch while I exercise. Now I know that is good for her to be with other kids every once in a while and I know that mommy also needs a little time to herself to take care of me. My excuse was so rediculous and now I am embarrassed to even be saying it. I honestly think most times it's better for is to venture to the gym rather than sitting at home. I will try to never use that excuse again as I know it's just not true. Tomorrow I have a busy day but I hope to get in a little workout. Even if it's just a little cardio or strength training while Lillyana naps. I have to get back to it. I know that I've already set myself back from where I was and each day I delay is putting me further back too. With that being said, my last day of exercise was the first day of C25K. Now I have always had the desire to run or at least jog for exercise but I've never been able to because of my physical limitations. Last week I thought that I would give it a try since I had been exercising for about four or five months and I am now able to do 30 minutes on the recumbant bike and another 60 on the elliptical. My asthma is finally under control, I was feeling great and felt that I was getting stronger. I did day one and managed to jog for 6 out of the 8 jogging cycles. I did this on a treadmill which looking back I think I should have done it on concrete so I would be able to control my pace much easier and quicker than having to adjust the speed on the treadmill. Still, I managed to complete the whole 30 minutes and I was SO incredibly proud of myself. The next couple days I was sore but nothing too terrible. Then came sudden onset of sharp hip pain Everytime I externally rotated. The pain is on my good side too which makes it even worse because it's the side of my body that I count on to compensate for my weaker right side. A couple days later I went to my regular chiropractor appointment and he thought I was nuts to attempting jogging because of the impact and my unbalanced muscles and bones. After examing and adjusting me he basically said that my left hip is incredibly loose and can be dislocated very easily if I'm not careful. Needless to say I won't be trying jogging again. How does one get past the desire to jog/run knowing that they physically can't and shouldn't? I enjoy my workouts now but I feel bored at times. What other cardio options could I try that might get me out of my exercise funk? I want to try to maximize calories burned in the least amount of time.