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Wednesday, May 02, 2018

Check-in: I am working hard to stay positive, after a really difficult low day last week.

Wage garnishment, they refuse to negotiate. They don’t put people into debtor’s prison anymore, but it feels like I’m financially imprisoned. I was trying to sew my financial life back together and received my first one from delinquent debt nearly 10 years old. I turn 40 this year, my 401k is empty, my savings is low, and my job is threatened. This is not a healthy place to be. Further, I’m worried about being able to have enough money for food (my biggest splurge expenses, and a little bit unchecked.)

I restarted my deliberate mindfulness of gratitude. I am trying my hardest to envision a path through this, instead of destructive escape. It has been a legitimately treacherous climb out of the downward spiral. I’m increasing my daily step intake to help deal with my anxious energy. And I’m hoping that these things work. I'm also contacting a professional therapist. Everything feels so broken.
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  • JIBBIE49
    Go to YouTube and listen to Elizabeth White's TedTalk on how with a Harvard MBA she ended up broke.

    Fifty-five, Unemployed, Faking Normal | Elizabeth White | TEDxVCU
    506 days ago
    You never know when things will turn around for you. I too am struggling and trying to figure this out.

    This is cut and pasted from a Spark article I read today.
    It is very thought provoking.

    “Where do you see yourself in 10 years?”
    In ten years:
    • How old are you?
    • Where do you live?
    • With whom do you share a home?
    • When you open your eyes in the morning, what do you see, hear, smell and feel?
    • Who is there? How do you spend your time during the day?
    • Where do you go and how do you get there? Who or what do you see along the way?
    • What do you do for a living?
    • How do you move your body? What kind of exercise do you do?
    • What do you look like when you see yourself in the mirror?
    • What brings you the most joy on this day?
    • Who do you share your time with? Who do you visit, call or talk to?
    • How do you feel when your head hits the pillow at the end of this day?
    • What are you excited about doing tomorrow?
    • What is your idea life? Are you living it?"

    Live your best life right now, I know this can happen for you. emoticon
    1098 days ago
  • THOMS1
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  • 46SHADOW
    One step at a time!
    1107 days ago
  • no profile photo CD4764832
    Hang in there, it sounds like you are taking all the right steps to deal with thing!!
    1108 days ago
    Here's something that is free and possibly quite useful to you at this time. Listen to more and more and more and things will begin to look brighter and easier.
    Sending love.

    1108 days ago
    emoticon you are going through this. Keep looking up!

    1108 days ago
    Sorry to hear you're struggling with finances. It sure effects everything in life. Hope therapy can get you moving in a better direction.
    1108 days ago
    I'm so sorry that you're going through all this... It's unbelievably hard. One of the best things I've read lately is The Joy Plan by Kaia Roman. The science in the book, more than anything else, has helped me to understand my anxiety, and the rest of the book is pretty fabulous, too. As the book says, "Hand it Up" and focus on where you want to go. Hugs.
    1108 days ago
  • LIZZIE138
    Big emoticon
    1108 days ago
  • LINDA!
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    I’m sorry you are entangled in this, but I am glad you set up therapy. Sending healing prayers.
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