100 days of OMAD: 13
Tuesday, April 03, 2018
If you like me accept that you have an eating disorder you look for cures for that disease = changing behaviour and habits.
If you like me suffer from obesity you look for cures from that condition = weight loss.
I find it hard to find support groups that deals with both goals – groups like OA (Overeaters) deals with the obsession to eat compulsively, groups like Weight Watchers use weight numbers as measures of success. That is not entirely true, for example Spark people emphasises the importance of adjusting lifestyle to reach a healthy weight - but the discussions and challenges in different groups are very much about weight lost.
And to me - morbidly obese – weightloss is a most wanted and life-saving necessity goal, even though I know it is meaningless without changing my behaviour. without that the weightloss is "only" a diet and the weight will inexorably come back.
The numbers on the scale are an important sign that my changes are working in the right direction, but they are unreliable, I can do the right things but the body does not cooperate (for a while, in the long run it does...)
Writing this I realise that it is a confused blog, I feel a little divided in where to put my focus. If I deal with behaviour mostly I tend to deny that my obesity remains, if I focus too much on kilos lost, I tend to go into obsessive thinking....
O well, who said it should be easy... (I did! I want it to be easy!!!)