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Binge Eating Issues, again, but it will be different this time.

Saturday, February 17, 2018

This is a little difficult for me to type, but to acknowledge my mistake forces me to own my bad decisions. Over the last couple of weeks I've gone back to poor food decisions and a considerable amount of binge eating. I'm up some 19 pounds as I step on the scales this week. Oh I knew my clothing was starting to get a little tight, so I'm not shocked in the least. "If you do what you've always done, you will get what you have always got." Poor English perhaps, but accurate. Well this time I'm not going to do what I've always done, admit defeat and put 110 pounds back on. What have I changed? For the first time in my life I'm seeking professional help for binge episodes. We talked at length about my adoption and my early years. I suppose that after some 50 years I face my feelings related to my early childhood. Forgive the length of this post, as I'm basically venting in public so as to not internalize my pain of poor decisions, and make even more bad decisions to sooth that pain.
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  • ISNESS
    Early childhood shaped us more than we admit. Both too much love and food and being ignored or cruelty of punishment shape us and trigger emotional eating, alcoholism or drug abuse later. They all correspond with the reward center in our brains.
    840 days ago
  • SIMPLICITY-NOW
    I'd be interested to hear how you are doing now and how the therapy is working for you.

    I just (re)started a team for those interested in a set of simple guidelines that help to overcome overeating and binge eating. You're very welcome to join it.
    874 days ago
  • THROOPER62
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    933 days ago
  • MSJENNIFERVT48
    WOW! Powerful Blog. I'm SO glad I found it- and we are on the same dawgie team together!

    I go through just about the same thing.... A little while ago- I lost 20ish pounds... It was the first time I have lost ANY amount of weight- and I put it right back on with Mindless- Not Controlled eating.

    I don't know about you, but I have major ups and downs- and when I am a little up/neutral up- I get slammed back down again..... It rots- but it is what it is... I'm trying to seek help for my emotions...

    I'm glad you are getting help too. It's always nice to hear new tips and fresh ideas to our everyday- common problems and or struggles....

    You have got this-

    If you need any help- I'm here-- as I'm sure you are for me too!!!!

    Keep shining! Keep sparking!

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    Jen
    939 days ago
  • LBPLOTTS
    Great blog. One of my nutritian clients is a hypnotist that has had great success treating binge eating through hypnosis. Good luck!


    941 days ago
  • RAYLINSTEPHENS
    Oh honey - why do you think it's called, "falling off the wagon?" It's because that is what it is. For whatever reason, we fall back into binging.

    But you just keep trying.

    Huggers,
    Linda
    942 days ago
  • GO_GAL_GROW
    emoticon The hard part was facing it, making it public, and getting help.
    emoticon I’m glad you are here!

    943 days ago
  • MARYANNGI
    I think it took you a lot of courage to write this blog. You have taken a huge step and you can do this!
    943 days ago
  • DIANEDOESSMILES
    Steve, you are courageous on many levels.

    First as you you're addressing what lays behind the bienging... SP!! Sorry

    I'm not adopted. My Mom divorced my Dad when I was 7. I adored my Dad. It threw me horribly. It threw my youngest brother for life. We never knew why my Dad saw us only 3 times a year. After Mom died, my Dad and I slowly reestablished our relationship. Come to find out (I saw things from Mom. Didn't make sense til he filled them in). Mom had told him she'd take us far away if he tried to see us more.

    FAR from you went thru. Your feelings need to be validated,,,, absolutely though u may or may not get the answers you need.

    So proud of you for getting help asap!! Totally a strong positive action. I hope you are giving yourself a big hug and not a lecture. I've been at this for 7 Yrs. In 15 I was quite I'll,,,gained and GAINED,, well over 50 pounds. Its a journey well worth it. Its not just our food choices,,,activity we do which make us healthy,,,,,its the way we rebuild ourselves from the inside too.

    TY for being courageous!! And honest!!
    943 days ago
  • CHERIRIDDELL
    You can do this we have faith in you.
    943 days ago
  • KATIE5668
    Indeed just having someone to talk to can help, trained counselors can help you ferret out issues ..so good thing!! You have seen the problem , faced it and are dealing with it head on...great moves all around!
    Anytime you need an ear..send me a Sparkmail. Always ready to listen and sometimes that is all you need.
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    944 days ago
  • LABYRINTH
    I'm glad you are talking to a counselor. I also find a private journal and sometimes keeping a dream journal also helpful.
    944 days ago
  • MYTIMEOK
    Congratulations for taking control and getting help. Sometimes we need another set of ears and eyes on our behaviour to help us make sense of the situation. Good luck🍀🍀
    944 days ago
  • CHAR46SUE
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    944 days ago
  • JUSTSTICKWITHIT
    Great and heartfelt blog. Sounds very familiar. I know you can do it, I have gained 20lbs in 3 months, you got this!!
    944 days ago
  • CAROLHALL13
    Prayers for you...
    944 days ago
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