Starting Again for the Last Time
Tuesday, January 09, 2018
I love SparkPeople. I've made many of the recipes that are online, and I've taken exercise tips from Nicole on many occasions. I've started and stopped at my exercise center, and in the years since joining SparkPeople, I've had two knee replacement surgeries, taken care of my parents (sadly, lost my Dad in 2009), and gained too much weight. I'd lose a bit, gain it back, and do the yo-yo thing for a while.
This year, as I've reflected on what I've accomplished or not, the one thing that sticks in my craw is that I have only gained weight. I've kept using the excuse that I KNOW what to do intellectually (come on, I have a master's degree), but my head and heart are not making the connection with what I want/should to accomplish. I know how to eat well, I know to exercise moderately, I know what triggers me to eat, and I know what I should stay away from. I don't drink sodas (way too sweet), and I can pass up dessert for an extra helping of potatoes (although that has to stop), and truly, I'm fortunate that I don't have that much stress in my life. I also know that I lack a certain amount of discipline to make it all work together properly. Well, I'm done.
Ok, so I hate tracking food...when I do, it works. Ok, so I really would rather not head to the gym after work, change clothes, and spend another hour and a half (if i do my routine of cardio and strength machines) feeling out of shape; however, I know that I feel better once I do. I know that it's the small steps that eventually lead to bigger results, and I don't really get overly concerned when I slip up. However, I can do better.
This morning I read Chris Downie's blog which contained the question, "Why do you want to get fit?" And the answer could not include, "I want to lose X pounds." Yep, get that. So when I thought about WHY I want to change my behavior, I think it's simply that I want to feel good about myself and my health. I want to feel truly engaged with life, with my family, and know that I'm the best me I can be. I don't have as many days ahead of me as are behind me, and I wasted enough time. Best to jump on the band wagon before it passes me by and hang on dearly this time.
So...baby steps. Yes, I have a fairly large goal in the back of my mind, but I know to concentrate on the smaller, baby steps right in front of me and make small changes that I can stick with. I expect bumps along the road, but I also know that if/when they happen, I turn to the resources of SparkPeople for help and advice, and dust myself off, and keep moving forward. Here's to life!