It's Time to Examine My Process
Friday, September 15, 2017
When I found out that my high school was having an All Years Reunion this year (a once every 4 years occurrence), I made the decision that, after having missed every other reunion in the 41 years since I graduated, I was going to go. Like the good procrastinator that I am, I avoided telling my boyfriend of almost a year and a half that I would like us to attend until last week. He was thrilled with the idea (which surprised me). Given that the reunion is on the first weekend in October, it was pretty good that I was able to get reasonably priced tickets to Chicago, a semi-decent hotel, and a really good deal on a rental car at this late date.
I think (in the back of my mind) I was trying to self-sabotage again (as I am so want to do when it comes to doing things for myself) and use the lateness of my decision as an excuse not to attend yet again. I am liking this part of myself less and less these days and know it is time for a change. In most aspects in my life, I am a very positive and determined woman. When it comes to myself (with the exception of my physical goals), I deny myself what would please me most of the time for the most menial of reasons. I am going to have to really dig deep and find the source of this issue. I know that I cannot move forward until I do...