I gave myself a good long look in the mirror and decided that enough was enough. The tools I had in my toolkit and the online support were not moving the needle. If my weight wasn't going down, I either needed to accept that or do something different.
We know I've done doctor supervised very low calorie diet. I got to goal and promptly put it all back on. Plus 20 pounds. I've done crash diets and got to goal. The intent of Sparkpeople was that I would learn how to do this a healthy sustainable way. But despite my best efforts, my fabulous teams, the marvelous challenges, and the amazing support I received from all of you it was not moving the needle.
I decided to talk to a weight loss professional made available to me through a company benefit. In our first session she pointed out that I have a "perfectionist mentality." Duh. That took all of 5 minutes for her to peg. In week 1 she said "pick one thing you can actually do this week. Just one."
I decided I would eat breakfast 5 days a week. I frankly don't see the value of breakfast and I normally don't eat breakfast. Then she said "that's your job. Your ONLY job is to eat breakfast 5 days a week. Do anything else you want." Are you KIDDING? And I'll lose weight? But ok, she's a professional so off I went.
I ate breakfast for a week. Did not consciously change anything else about my eating. And you won't believe what happened. I lost a little weight. Because I saw the scale creeping down I was excited and I tried a few other things. I tried getting some water. I tried strength training once for 10 minutes..
Week 2 we met and she said "can you add one other tiny healthy thing to your list?" We agreed I would drink 4 glasses of water 5 days a week and I'd try 10 minutes of strength training 3 days a week. She reminded me, "NOTHING else. That is ALL you have to do." Guess what happened? I lost more weight.
Our third weekly meeting was Friday. This week I am continuing with breakfast, upping it to 6 glasses of water 7 days a week, continuing with strength training for 10 minutes 3 times a week. I am adding in "try a strength training video" just to see what other options are available I don't know about. And, I added in my dear friend SparkFran's constant struggle...tracking 3 days this week. On the WEEKEND. She said "you don't have to CHANGE what you eat this weekend. Just TRACK it. These are the ONLY things you have to do."
The mentality is working for me. I've lost 6 pounds in 3 weeks. I get up every morning eager to see the scale. When I would normally have self-crushing incrimination I think "no, my ONLY job is these things."
NSV's include better skin. I had a dry patch on my face that I was moisturizing like mad multiple times a day. Now that I'm getting water it is gone. My joints don't creak as much. Now that I am doing even minimal strength training I don't hobble about when I wake up in the morning.
I know I've been super quiet. That's because I just did not know what to do to turn this around for myself. Thank you to all of you who reached out with concern. I don't know if this is The Answer, but I can tell you for right now it's working wonders for me. I wanted to let you know!
I hope YOU are doing fabulous!!
Edit: REEDSKI raises an excellent point. I am not saying anything new that Sparkpeople doesn't encourage us to do. I only say that without this extra shove I was not getting myself into the necessary head space. This extra push is working for me.