No time for fear.
Tuesday, August 22, 2017
I'm realizing that fear is a huge barrier in my life. I mean, this isn't really a huge revolution: fear holds all of us back at some time or another. Yet, somehow I've let fear stop me from way too many things lately. It stops today. Here are the things I'm going to stop letting fear (including fear of PAIN) keep me from:
1. Exercising regularly.
2. Biking to and from school.
3. Finishing my PhD.
4. Embracing new things, people, activities, habits, hobbies, environments, etc.
5. Living a life WITHOUT excuses (as in, I'm letting my fear be an excuse for all the things I should or want to be doing but feel I am not "ready" to do -- that's just procrastination and not preparation, though!)
I'm starting with the first 3 today. Those are more tangible. The last two are going to take a little more fleshing out to figure out action steps.
Here is what I'm doing today for the first three goals:
1. I'm going to attempt to walk home. If I can't (because of pain) I'll switch gears and then exercise while I'm on my work calls tonight (march in place?) or after (march in place?). There has to be ways to fit it in despite being a desk jockey 12 hours a day...
2. Make a list of what I need to execute or purchase before I can do my first dry run on the bike commute later this week.
3. Just keep moving forward. Make plans and stick to them. Stop letting myself be so chronically distracted. It's a vicious cycle: excess stress makes me extra distractible but being extra distracted makes me even more stressed. Before long, I've spiraled out of control and away from my goals!
I have spent the last 3-ish months in stasis. I didn't regain what I lost but I didn't keep moving forward, either. It's time. Time to work harder and reclaiming my life.
My pain levels have just been through the roof these last months. I feel like I've been run over by a bus constantly. I can't fix that overnight. But I can keep a positive attitude and EMBRACE the fear in the hopes that I keep moving forward... not just running in the same place and wearing myself out.
What fears hold you back? What can you start changing today?