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Wednesday, August 09, 2017

I cannot even remember when I last spent time on Spark. It's been a whirlwind of worry and in general, getting old is marked by loss. I'm trying to cope with my serious diabetes and heart failure but at the same time I must take good care of my husband who had a near fatal stroke a year ago. Also one of my children has a long-term serious illness and we talk to him every day (he is not in town). He needs a lot of support. And don't we all on this voyage which will inevitably be a mortal one?

I am going to try to be mindful about what I eat and how much I eat. I am exhausted all the time and finding it hard to exercise: every day there's a schedule for my husband. We are on the brink of our 45th wedding anniversary. He still looks handsome to me, but I see how spindly his legs are and I always worry that his knees or ankles will buckle.

I was off Spark for at least a year and have been very saddened to discover that some of my Spark friends have died. I have been thinking of them and their voyages as I learn about the losses.

I think I am older than many of the people here and that gives me a certain perspective. Years do bring the philosophic mind. But how sad to develop a philosophic mind when the body is limited, crippled by its sundry disorders.

I hope to make the most of my new chance here at Spark people.
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    I'm glad you have returned. Take care of yourself and your hubby. I sent a prayer for you both.
    1408 days ago
    By all means, share the philosophy! We need more thought-- real thought-- in the spark-verse. There's enough surface crap here, so anything a little more than food-diet-youcandoit encouragement- why can't I do it- lookit my new x thing- etc. is a welcome change.

    1408 days ago
    You have a lot to cope with. Getting older does give us a certain perspective.
    There are more older Sparkers here than you may realize. Working on "functional fitness" is a goal.
    Hang in there.
    1408 days ago
    I really enjoyed hearing your perspective. We all live inside a body so the significance of health can't be overstated. But our time is limited and what's more important than family? You have a strong good spirit. Sending good vibes to your kiddo.
    1408 days ago
  • MICHELLE2426
    Sorry to here of all of your challenges. Be good to yourself and take one day at a time. Walking has always been a stress reliever for me, maybe plan something you will find relaxing.
    1408 days ago
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    1408 days ago
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