Wednesday, August 09, 2017
I cannot even remember when I last spent time on Spark. It's been a whirlwind of worry and in general, getting old is marked by loss. I'm trying to cope with my serious diabetes and heart failure but at the same time I must take good care of my husband who had a near fatal stroke a year ago. Also one of my children has a long-term serious illness and we talk to him every day (he is not in town). He needs a lot of support. And don't we all on this voyage which will inevitably be a mortal one?
I am going to try to be mindful about what I eat and how much I eat. I am exhausted all the time and finding it hard to exercise: every day there's a schedule for my husband. We are on the brink of our 45th wedding anniversary. He still looks handsome to me, but I see how spindly his legs are and I always worry that his knees or ankles will buckle.
I was off Spark for at least a year and have been very saddened to discover that some of my Spark friends have died. I have been thinking of them and their voyages as I learn about the losses.
I think I am older than many of the people here and that gives me a certain perspective. Years do bring the philosophic mind. But how sad to develop a philosophic mind when the body is limited, crippled by its sundry disorders.
I hope to make the most of my new chance here at Spark people.