SOMETHING FEELS DIFFERENT, BUT WHAT IS IT?
Sunday, June 11, 2017
Here I am on Spark - I think it is 10 or 11 years. And I have never reached my goal weight. I have started over or picked up where I left off 11 different times. But this time feels really different to me. Why is that?
I have thought about it a lot and I think one of the biggest reasons is that I have conquered what it means to have patience. I no longer look at the calendar and try to calculate how long it is going to take me to get to that magical goal weight. It doesn't matter. I will get there when I get there. I have patience.
And I do not beat myself up anymore for having started and stopped and started again. It is AOK. It is really so true that it isn't about the destination, it is all about the journey. I am finally enjoying this journey and loving it. The journey includes good days, not so good days, sickness, health, parties, fun times, very sad emotional setbacks. The journey is all about doing your best on whatever you are going through right at this moment. Sometimes that means coping with life by eating things that we know are not good for us. It also means feeling unable to exercise because all of your energy has been taken up by something else. But even more important is recognizing that these are just little setbacks and that the total journey includes all the progress and the setbacks because it is all about mastering patience.
Isn't it great to finally understand something so basic to our well-being. I am patient with myself and that is also part of the beauty and joy of this journey.