I Am Enough.
Saturday, June 03, 2017
The hardest part about losing weight are the head games. I still see myself as the 325+ lb girl when I look in the mirror.
I still hate being in public, wondering if the people laughing are snickering at a joke about me.
I still hate to fly; wondering if the seat belt will fit or if I'll need an extender.
I still hate eating in public; wondering if the people staring at me are wondering what the fat girl will order.
I still hate to exercise at the gym; wondering if someone will be taking my photo to turn it into an internet meme.
I still hate to sit on chairs and booths in public; wondering if they will break or if I'll fit.
I still hate meeting new people; wondering if they will judge me just because of how I look.
I still hate talking in front of people; wondering if they think my words have any value.
I could go on and on with this list. These are genuine thoughts of someone who has been morbidly obese and abused throughout most of their life. It's a constant struggle to face those lifelong demons head on.
However, I'm learning to get out of my comfort zone and realize that I am enough. To those people that know me and love me, I AM ENOUGH.
You are enough, too.