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I Am Enough.

Saturday, June 03, 2017

The hardest part about losing weight are the head games. I still see myself as the 325+ lb girl when I look in the mirror.

I still hate being in public, wondering if the people laughing are snickering at a joke about me.
I still hate to fly; wondering if the seat belt will fit or if I'll need an extender.
I still hate eating in public; wondering if the people staring at me are wondering what the fat girl will order.
I still hate to exercise at the gym; wondering if someone will be taking my photo to turn it into an internet meme.
I still hate to sit on chairs and booths in public; wondering if they will break or if I'll fit.
I still hate meeting new people; wondering if they will judge me just because of how I look.
I still hate talking in front of people; wondering if they think my words have any value.

I could go on and on with this list. These are genuine thoughts of someone who has been morbidly obese and abused throughout most of their life. It's a constant struggle to face those lifelong demons head on.

However, I'm learning to get out of my comfort zone and realize that I am enough. To those people that know me and love me, I AM ENOUGH.

You are enough, too.






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  • CARMACHAMELEON
    WOW!!! This is beautiful and I saw myself in every word that you wrote. You go, young lady because you and God have this thing! In fact, it's a God THANG!!!!

    Thank you and Blessings!

    - Nancy Jean -
    GA
    898 days ago
  • JENJEN481
    I know how you feel i once wemt to a festival. Some guy mafe a mooing sound at me but he didnt think. I had walked all over the festival. Grounds that is alot of walking for a big gal like myself
    920 days ago
  • NANCYPAT1
    You're right, you are enough.
    920 days ago
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