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Week 42

Thursday, April 27, 2017

Another 2 weeks has gone by and I am inching ever closer to Onederland!

Right now, though, I am having a major struggle with my mental state. I have some pretty bad depression going on and yesterday I think I almost hit rock bottom. It's the worst it has been in over 10 years. I have no idea why really. It's probably a combination of things including the horrible weather we have had this year in Washington State. As of today, we have had almost 50 inches of rain since October plus almost 5 feet of snow in our area. Not conducive to a very healthy mental state. I am still managing to get in some exercise, but not what I want to be getting in. Been praying a lot for peace of mind.

I weighed in yesterday at my lowest weight since I was like 10. I am at 200.8 pounds, just one pound to go to reach the magical Onederland! I am 6 pounds from my high end goal weight and then I will reevaluate how much more I want to lose as I feel like I am pushing to the too thin side for my size. I will reach my goal well before my one year surgiversary though and that to me is still absolutely mind blowing and amazing!
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    Depression is such an insidious thing. It make the joy in the world seem so inaccessible. Some people find medications helpful. I resisted taking antidepressants for a long time. Some leftover Midwestern messages about being stoic and just talking myself out of it. Which didn't work for me. Antidepressants have helped me a lot. I still have days of struggle, but they don't last as long and feel as intense. I try to focus on the message that self care, including seeking help when necessary, is one of the ways to honor God's gifts to us.

    I do think that there's something about certain phases of major weight loss that trigger strong emotions, including depression. I've no idea why. But it has often occurred among our team members.

    Each person's challenges and solutions are different. And it often takes some fine tuning of med types and doses and other supports to arrive at the optimal balance. Meds may or may not be part of your optimal solution, but it would be worth discussing with your health care team to see what suggestions they might have. It will get better. Trust in that.
    1404 days ago
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    Depression is a burden many of us share. Depression is a big liar.
    It tells us we're no good when Jehovah says he's pround of us.
    It's one of the biggest things I look forward to getting rid of in the new system.
    1407 days ago
    Light really is essential for our mental and physical well being. Have you looked into a light box such as many folks with SAD use in the darker winter months? I have access to polychromatic light therapy materials...wish I could share them with you. They help my husband who also deals with depression...for nearly 40 yrs! If you really have prolonged troubles..do get help. Congrats on being so close to not one but two goals! You will be there before you know it! emoticon
    1408 days ago
    Yes when we lived in Arlington it rained so much I had to wear a raincoat everyday,
    Since we moved to Eastern Washington I donated 15 raincoats and jackets that I no longer need,
    The weather there is depressing for sure and I am so much more active and happier as I get out and get my Vitamin every day working in the yard and flower beds.

    Just remember though you cannot change the weather you can most certainly brighten your days with love for your family as I know you do. Think about going for that next hike and make plans even though it is rainy right now your plan will be in place when the rain slows down or stops for a few weeks and maybe even who knows months.

    There is light at the end of the tunnel and I know you will pull yourself out of the slump your in right now.

    Hey Congrats on the almost Onderland weigh in, I bet next week you will be in that new place along with your beautiful wife. Give the kiddos a hug from me.
    1409 days ago
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