Is it Friday yet?!
Wednesday, March 08, 2017
Today has been a pretty trying day for me diet-wise. I had quite a bit of bread/carbs today. I am still without Pepsi, which is going on 2 weeks this Sunday. I must admit that the last few days I have really craved one. I have quite a few contributing stressors also, which doesn't help. Let me just say:
1. This is the anniversary of my nephews fatal accident involving a motorcycle, and it has been extremely hard on his widow and children. It has been 2 years, but she walks in constant mourning, which is difficult, because you're always having to be supportive without much consoling yourself.
2. My oldest daughter is having her final appointment today before embarking on weight loss surgery. Hopefully everything will workout and she will be cleared and prepared for the procedure within 2-3 weeks.
3. My on again/off again relationship of almost 7 years has yet to hit another reaffirming bump in the road. We are not actively dating, but we communicate regularly. I'm just upset with myself because it appears we're in a constant repeat cycle, and he doesn't see it as a problem that he is in the same position that he was in a year ago, and the year before that, and the year before that, etc. He's going to be 58 years old this year!
4. My niece, whom I've spent a lot of time raising in her early teens, is facing a difficult time right now, and has been hospitalized for stress. She hasn't been able to function much/well since the death of her brother, which was my nephew. She just called to let me know she is being admitted for further treatment.
It appears, even with all of this, that things are getting better. My daughter is finally taking control of her life and decisions about her health and overall wellbeing. My youngest daughter is now gainfully employed - with benefits! My niece is getting help, and my situation with my ex has just been severed. I guess I needed to put it down and remove the burden of it just being in my head. I'll just drink some more water and focus on my future state and not on what I can't change.