Really it's March?
Wednesday, March 01, 2017
Today someone came in my office and jokingly said, hey it's March you need to change your calendar. I looked at the photograph of the snowy scene above the month of February and thought to myself yes, its time to change the calendar. I was pleased to be greeted by a photo of some bright and colorful sculpted flowers from a gallery nearby above the month of March. No more snowy scenes!
Holy crap. It's March!!! Which invoked thoughts of two months gone.... what have I done? am I where I want to be? am I headed in the right direction? what do I need to work harder on? Where exactly am I on this path to a healthier lifestyle? And then I saw "Ash Wednesday" on the calendar. What? Yes, I know it always follows Fat Tuesday but really I am not ready for Ash Wednesday. What am I going to give up for Lent?
I sat in the lunchroom as one person professed they were giving up snacks at work, another said I am not adding additional salt to my food, another gave up soda, another gave up coffee. I thought about it. I could give up soda. No, I really don't want to give up soda. I could give up eating out. No, I really don't want to do that either and I am going to be out of town this weekend - I can't not eat for the weekend. Hmmmm. I felt lost. Everyone looked to me. I blurted out "I'm not giving up anything". Phew. There. I said it. Guilt started to creep in as they looked at me.
Why do I have to give up anything? Really? Does God really want me to deprive myself? Other than honing my self control skills, I am not sure what the purpose of giving up candy or any of that stuff serves. Is the world a better place because of it?
Instead of giving up something, I am going to give something daily. Not like write a check give, but like doing something for someone give. Yep 40 acts of random kindness and grace. I felt better. It suited me.
Which brings me back to two months gone.... am I where I want to be? No. Am I on my way there? To be honest, right now I am questioning that. It seems I have had many excuses lately. I know I can do better. Perhaps it is time to tweak things a bit. What have I done? I'm sparking again, I'm being honest, I'm trying my best to eat better and exercise more.
The Lent thing and this healthy lifestyle thing are going hand in hand for me. I have to find what works for ME. It might not be your Whole 30 plan, or someone else's vegetarian plan.... it has to be MY plan that works for me that I can live with!
If practicing the self control and deprivation don't lead to something good, they seem futile. I struggle. I want to see results! It isn't about the giving things up, it is about the good that comes from that self denial. That is what fulfills me. I think it is time for me to adjust my glasses and quit looking at what I am giving up, but at the good things I am gaining!
So what are those things? Well in two months I can't say that I really notice much. Yikes, that makes it harder! The scale is down a few pounds. My clothes still are tight. I haven't changed sizes. I don't look any different. I still get out of breath taking the stairs at work.
However, my doctor says my numbers are better. My cholesterol is down. My blood pressure is good. So that is what I am going to look at today. Good things are happening! I just can't see them yet.
Wait, yes I can! I have those lab results. Yep, I am posting them where I can see them daily - so when I think all is lost, when I want to quit, eat poorly, or not exercise - I can see
GOOD THINGS ARE HAPPENING!
I love it when good things happen, don't you? What good things are happening on your journey?