Life after getting my boy back!
Tuesday, January 31, 2017
So my youngest returned from west Africa after two long years. The joy we felt that moment he got off the plane is indescribable. For those two years I was lost in a bit of a fog, depression nipping at my heels. He's been home for almost 6 months and I am ready to now refocus on my efforts to put things right with me physically, mentally and spiritually.
My blood pressure is high
My cholesterol is high
My blood sugar is high
AND I'm on a total of 4 medications.
I stepped out of my comfort zone and joined a Health and Wellness group through my husband's insurance. It literally starts at ground zero. This past week the only focus we had was to track every morsel, every sip. We weren't supposed to worry about changing what we eat or how much but just simply track. That's what I have done.
Once again, it has been an eye opener.
My emotional eating is literally killing me. I start eating and I don't want to stop. Anything and everything triggers me. I never feel like I have had enough. I don't care as much about quality of food as I do volume. I start my days thinking where I get to eat, what food I can have. I eat with people, I eat alone. I eat to discomfort. I'm in a fog most of the time and I have little energy or interest in anything or anyone outside of me and my binge-ing.
However, since starting to track I have been more conscious of my behavior and though I haven't restricted food, I have added more water daily and I have added breakfast back into my day (which isn't easy for me). Just these two simple things have made a small difference in how I feel. I also have been journaling and going to bed a little earlier.
One thing I know for sure is trying to make a major overhaul all at once will always end in failure. So I will take it one day at a time and even one meal at a time. I have once again returned to Spark People because even when I've strayed for awhile it always feels like home when I return.