Some of you remember the old cartoons that showed the "good angel" whispering into the character's ear, followed by the "devil" whispering in the character's ear and the struggle the character faced of who to listen to.
Yep, that was me on my treadmill last night. I hadn't been on the treadmill since Friday. My weekend gatherings and getaways did not allow for any face time with the treadmill. Monday I had my son over and we ran errands, got groceries and played catch up on the household tasks that needed to be done.
So after that three day break, I laced up the shoes and hopped on. I set the speed at a fifteen minute mile and added a 3.5 incline. I started walking.
After two minutes, I started hearing that little devil whispering - you will never make 15 minutes, you are tired already.
Then the good angel kicked in you got this - you only have 13 more minutes to go. I walked on.
I was sweating. I was starting to breathe harder. Holy crap one more minute gone. Phew! 12 more to go.
"you should take a break at 5 minutes and catch your breath".
No - I have THREE minutes down and only TWELVE more minutes to go. I am almost to the quarter mile mark. I can do this. I am strong.
Concentrate on the music Barb, feel the beat, move your body, you can do it.
NO, YOU CAN'T. STOP and take a break! You are not strong, quit pretending to be.
Look - only one more minute to the five minute mark - it's only a minute away - keep walking you can do it!
SWEAT, pant, pant. How did you get here? When did this happen? I used to do this all the time and never felt like this!
It doesn't matter how you got here. You don't want to stay here so.....Keep walking. Become stronger. That isn't gonna happen sitting on the couch. OK - hey look, that five minute mark came and went - I am almost HALFWAY there! WooHoo!
OK - so at the halfway mark - stop, go sit in a chair for a couple minutes, take a break. You deserve a break. Wipe away that sweat, catch your breath. It's ok to take a break.
It's ok. Keep walking. You are not gasping for breath. You are working hard. Hard work is ok. Test your limits. I bet you can do the whole mile without a break. Look another minute ticked away!
You could have a heart attack. Take a break. Drink some cool water, wipe your sweat, heck, have a bite of a cookie too! You worked hard. You deserve it!
Will you quit listening to that little devil? He is sapping your energy and strength! You are doing a great job. Concentrate on your goals and what will take you there. It isn't the chair and the cookie - It is the path you are on right now. This is one of those uphill climbs. They won't always be uphill climbs, I promise you that. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other. This WILL get easier if you stick with it - but if you quit - you will be right here again the next time. You are not going to have a heart attack - you are going to have a healthier heart. Got it? Stop listening to that little devil
and start listening to the music!
Well, fifteen minutes later, no break, covered in sweat, a bit breathless, I finished. Yes, I finished. WooHoo!
Do other people do this? Sometimes I think I must be crazy - having these internal conversations with myself! There are so many better things to be doing! I have a friend who does the same thing. She sent me a Cherokee legend about the two wolves...
I couldn't help but smile. I think I threw a few table scraps to that bad wolf while walking on the treadmill, but the good wolf had the heart to win the struggle.
Great job finishing on the treadmill Barb! Now feed that good wolf, there will be more struggles ahead!