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Wednesday, January 25, 2017

Some of you remember the old cartoons that showed the "good angel" whispering into the character's ear, followed by the "devil" whispering in the character's ear and the struggle the character faced of who to listen to.

Yep, that was me on my treadmill last night. I hadn't been on the treadmill since Friday. My weekend gatherings and getaways did not allow for any face time with the treadmill. Monday I had my son over and we ran errands, got groceries and played catch up on the household tasks that needed to be done.

So after that three day break, I laced up the shoes and hopped on. I set the speed at a fifteen minute mile and added a 3.5 incline. I started walking.
emoticon After two minutes, I started hearing that little devil whispering - you will never make 15 minutes, you are tired already.
emoticon Then the good angel kicked in you got this - you only have 13 more minutes to go. I walked on.

I was sweating. I was starting to breathe harder. Holy crap one more minute gone. Phew! 12 more to go. emoticon "you should take a break at 5 minutes and catch your breath". emoticon No - I have THREE minutes down and only TWELVE more minutes to go. I am almost to the quarter mile mark. I can do this. I am strong.

Sweat. emoticon Concentrate on the music Barb, feel the beat, move your body, you can do it.
emoticon NO, YOU CAN'T. STOP and take a break! You are not strong, quit pretending to be.
emoticon Look - only one more minute to the five minute mark - it's only a minute away - keep walking you can do it!

SWEAT, pant, pant. How did you get here? When did this happen? I used to do this all the time and never felt like this!
emoticon It doesn't matter how you got here. You don't want to stay here so.....Keep walking. Become stronger. That isn't gonna happen sitting on the couch. OK - hey look, that five minute mark came and went - I am almost HALFWAY there! WooHoo!

emoticon OK - so at the halfway mark - stop, go sit in a chair for a couple minutes, take a break. You deserve a break. Wipe away that sweat, catch your breath. It's ok to take a break.

emoticon It's ok. Keep walking. You are not gasping for breath. You are working hard. Hard work is ok. Test your limits. I bet you can do the whole mile without a break. Look another minute ticked away!

emoticon You could have a heart attack. Take a break. Drink some cool water, wipe your sweat, heck, have a bite of a cookie too! You worked hard. You deserve it!

emoticon Will you quit listening to that little devil? He is sapping your energy and strength! You are doing a great job. Concentrate on your goals and what will take you there. It isn't the chair and the cookie - It is the path you are on right now. This is one of those uphill climbs. They won't always be uphill climbs, I promise you that. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other. This WILL get easier if you stick with it - but if you quit - you will be right here again the next time. You are not going to have a heart attack - you are going to have a healthier heart. Got it? Stop listening to that little devil emoticon and start listening to the music!

Well, fifteen minutes later, no break, covered in sweat, a bit breathless, I finished. Yes, I finished. WooHoo!

Do other people do this? Sometimes I think I must be crazy - having these internal conversations with myself! There are so many better things to be doing! I have a friend who does the same thing. She sent me a Cherokee legend about the two wolves...

I couldn't help but smile. I think I threw a few table scraps to that bad wolf while walking on the treadmill, but the good wolf had the heart to win the struggle.

Great job finishing on the treadmill Barb! Now feed that good wolf, there will be more struggles ahead!
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  • SHARON10002
    You know, I hear that same little angel and little devil on the treadmill! emoticon
    Loved the Cherokee proverb.
    1596 days ago
    Great blog i also talk to myself and remind my self to keep going never give up the Cherokee Legend is a keeper of my journal. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1596 days ago
    Great blog. The little devil might look like more fun, but never has your best interest at heart. Will leave you muttering and spluttering every time.
    1597 days ago
    Yes! Squash that evil voice. Follow the angel!
    1597 days ago
    Copying the Cherokee Legend image for my inspiration board!!! Wonderful blog. My devil must have a big, fat belly, because it's voice can be very loud. He's going on a diet today!!
    1597 days ago
  • BLUEJAY1969
    Great blog! Of course I have those conversations with myself too! Arguments really! You aren't crazy at all! I love that meme by the way!
    1597 days ago
    A very familiar conversation.......
    1597 days ago
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    This is great .......... One big kick in the butt for those enjoying the life of a couch potato!! ... emoticon
    1597 days ago
  • BJAEGER307
    Thank you for your blog. Maybe this is what I've been doing of late, letting that Evil twin take hold of me again. I need to talk to the Good twin and ask if she went on vacation.

    This is a very inspiring blog!

    You take care, be safe, and healthy!
    1597 days ago
  • no profile photo CD11945874
    Wow!! I just came over to read your blog ......(I find reading ones blog helps us understand the one writing and gives some insight ..... Well ....... Hmmm ........I am going to rise up and listen to the sweet angel voice and drown out that pesky liar who never does tell the truth!! emoticon Thanks for this great message!! ...I plan to take it to heart!! emoticon
    1597 days ago
    Very encouraging blog! emoticon on the win! I want to be sure I'm feeding the good wolf! emoticon emoticon
    1601 days ago
    I try to think about anything but the exercise minutes. I've been using the stationary bike at the gym, and I'm up to 20 minutes but trying to get to the point where I can join the cycle class of one hour. I find watching the timer really discouraging, so I think about other things. I decided to use the time learning Italian or memorizing poems. That should be challenging enough to keep my mind off the seconds and minutes.
    1607 days ago
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    1607 days ago
    Awesome! emoticon emoticon
    1609 days ago
    You did great! no you are not alone in your internal conversations. the quote you chose pretty much confirms that it is quite common. I choose to fee the joyous one. Sounds like you do too =)
    1610 days ago
  • 4AIMME
    My latest struggle was the Great Chocolate Chip Cookie Battle...

    emoticon They look so good. One won't hurt you... c'mon... just eat one. It was so nice of work to provide them for the meeting. MmmMMmMMmmmm COOOOOOKIES!!!!

    emoticon Don't do it. You will have a difficult time just eating one. Eat that big, juicy apple on your desk instead!

    That day I actually made the better choice. It felt good. Each time I walked past the room with the cookies I had to mentally get in the right head space.
    Before holding myself accountable I would have eaten 3 cookies... and then later a couple more... and then maybe even more the next morning. I'm happier now saving my calories for special times... like my son's birthday cake tomorrow, lol!

    I loved your blog... thank you for the inspiration!!!
    1610 days ago
    You won! Good. LOVE the wolf story. Have seen that many times. Feed the good wolf.
    1610 days ago
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    1611 days ago
  • LSIG14
    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Love that old legend because it is so true - and yes, I have the angel/devil conversation often. Sometimes I listen to the devil but I'm getting better at blocking him!
    1611 days ago
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    Oh, I do this all the time. Running on the track, I could take a break at a mile, maybe I'll only run two miles today. no, you can do this, run two miles before the break, but run the three miles, keep going. All the time!
    1611 days ago
    I love the Cherokee legend!
    1611 days ago
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