Location, location, location......
Wednesday, January 18, 2017
I have a rather nice large office at work. I used to have a crappy small office tucked away in a corner. I kinda liked it there! However, the powers that be wanted me more visible and moved me to an office in the central hall - right across from the entrance to the kitchen! Every person who was in that office lasted a few months and asked to be moved because the noise was a distraction. I am good at tuning out noise. Distraction helps me focus (if that makes sense). I like my office - just not the location!
So today is Mary's birthday. Some kind person brought in 3 dozen Krispy Kreme Donuts to celebrate. Yippee. They are sitting on the counter in full view from my office, along with their scent filling the air.
Now I can't say I love Krispy Kreme donuts - but of course, I WILL eat them. This I have found out - they are like crack. You can't eat one. They are light and airy. One is not filling and leads to a piece of another and another piece of another and on it goes. I am sure I could eat at least 6 of them if no one was watching.
Now I like Mary. I'm glad someone treated her on her birthday - but did you ever notice - most celebrations or gatherings are centered around food? And most of that food is not healthy food? Ugh. We really need to develop a new way of celebrating!
So here I sit with my door closed, smelling donuts, praying they are gone soon. I am hiding in my office - from DONUTS! Something is wrong about that! Really! Not to mention it leads to this great visual of this giant donut lurking outside my door ready to consume ME. My goal on this journey is not to end up looking like a donut!
Even thought I am hiding, my mind isn't buying it. I keep hearing "This is only the beginning of all this depriving yourself of yummy things", "This sucks", "You will never lose weight - you are about to fall to one of your first challenges", "This is your life, no celebrations without guilt - ever". And then the "Close your door Barb, focus on your work, not the donuts" "Focus on what you really want. Krispy Kreme's are good but they won't take you where you really want to go" "Don't fall into that sugar trap!" "You are going to throw away progress for one of those silly donuts you don't even really like?" I swear there is an all out war going on in my head!
So, just for today, I am hiding in my office with the door closed, praying that the donuts are gone soon and that my willpower holds out until they are. I am afraid to look!
Yep, some days are like this. Uphill battles on a slippery slope, where you work real hard just to keep from sliding backwards. However, I know - this too will change. Donuts don't last forever!