So about Friday. As you know if you've been reading my blog- Thursday night I had a great work out- Stopped at publix got all that healthy food and stuff. Friday morning I did great had my oatmeal, canteloupe, low Cal yogurt. Then it went down hill for lunch and dinner. So Last night I slept determined to wake up - work out and make right by me.
Mistake 1:I woke up and stayed in bed, the more I stayed in bed the more my determination went down.
Then I got up from the bed 30mn after I woke up starving because The last time I ate was yesterday at 4pm. And as I quickly got dressed, I said out loud "I am sorry , I cant"
Then drove to Mc Donald and had a 560 Cal breakfast Sandwich, and home made coffe and sugar.
Now after I ate I kept on thinking about what I said "I am sorry"
I am sorry that I could not keep my promise to work out? I am sorry I have to have my fat and starch in the morning? I am sorry to me because my Doctor already told me my cholesterol is already kind of High? I am sorry... ? Like I still dont get it.. what exacly was I sorry for?. Am I saying sorry to the Obese girl that I can become in 3 years if this goes on ... Am sorry Fu#!.. That! - Already 40% of my clothe dont fit and had to give away all my skinny dresses- How does my future really looks like- I havent even had kids yet :0-
Am sorry guys for the profanity am kind of upset. Anways move on to something more positive
- Am not gonna take 1 year to get my Shi#... together to only gain 10lb in return like last year.
no I will give myself till January to get it together. now i have been puttting my caloric intake in my Fit Bit App- I noticed that my caloric intake were between 2500 cals daily to 2,560 daily. So for starters am gonna stay below 2,000 calories- I know its its still to high to loose weight but I need to start somwhere. Already this morning I have 650 calories for BreakFast. I will work out today and tomorrow - At least I am still keeping up with my 3 days a week gym sessions. So for today my cal goal intake is still 2,000 cals-
One more thing - I thought about that incidend this morning and decided that next time I want to wake up and eat 600 cals for breakfast- I will eat that oatmeal cup and that banana first and if If still want to go eat fast food then I will re-evaluate the situation. Because 90% of the time after I eat a Healthy breakfast that I did not want to eat, I feel great. Its just the will power to actually choose to eat right that I need. I'll let you now How that goes. And not am not to hard on myself ... am just keeping it real.
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