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"I am sorry" I told myself ...

Saturday, January 14, 2017

Good morning--

So about Friday. As you know if you've been reading my blog- Thursday night I had a great work out- Stopped at publix got all that healthy food and stuff. Friday morning I did great had my oatmeal, canteloupe, low Cal yogurt. Then it went down hill for lunch and dinner. So Last night I slept determined to wake up - work out and make right by me.
Mistake 1:I woke up and stayed in bed, the more I stayed in bed the more my determination went down.
Then I got up from the bed 30mn after I woke up starving because The last time I ate was yesterday at 4pm. And as I quickly got dressed, I said out loud "I am sorry , I cant"
Then drove to Mc Donald and had a 560 Cal breakfast Sandwich, and home made coffe and sugar.

Now after I ate I kept on thinking about what I said "I am sorry"

I am sorry that I could not keep my promise to work out? I am sorry I have to have my fat and starch in the morning? I am sorry to me because my Doctor already told me my cholesterol is already kind of High? I am sorry... ? Like I still dont get it.. what exacly was I sorry for?. Am I saying sorry to the Obese girl that I can become in 3 years if this goes on ... Am sorry Fu#!.. That! - Already 40% of my clothe dont fit and had to give away all my skinny dresses- How does my future really looks like- I havent even had kids yet :0-

Am sorry guys for the profanity am kind of upset. Anways move on to something more positive

- Am not gonna take 1 year to get my Shi#... together to only gain 10lb in return like last year.
no I will give myself till January to get it together. now i have been puttting my caloric intake in my Fit Bit App- I noticed that my caloric intake were between 2500 cals daily to 2,560 daily. So for starters am gonna stay below 2,000 calories- I know its its still to high to loose weight but I need to start somwhere. Already this morning I have 650 calories for BreakFast. I will work out today and tomorrow - At least I am still keeping up with my 3 days a week gym sessions. So for today my cal goal intake is still 2,000 cals-
One more thing - I thought about that incidend this morning and decided that next time I want to wake up and eat 600 cals for breakfast- I will eat that oatmeal cup and that banana first and if If still want to go eat fast food then I will re-evaluate the situation. Because 90% of the time after I eat a Healthy breakfast that I did not want to eat, I feel great. Its just the will power to actually choose to eat right that I need. I'll let you now How that goes. And not am not to hard on myself ... am just keeping it real.
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    Awwwww, you had a rough time but you can still do it!!!!

    1612 days ago

    I freakin' love this. How many times this had happened to me only to berate myself later? Like it would do any good, right?

    Things will happen -- anything can interrupt your best laid plans. Like Quinny said, your blog is honest and insightful in many ways.

    Keep on plugging! I know what you're going through! emoticon
    1612 days ago
    Elina don't be sorry. Just use your nice profanity words and elsa it. (let it go) I didn't plan well for lunch and i looked in my pantry and thought I could just gorge but I pulled out a nice fish fillet from the freezer and it is currently being broiled. Still I do think about how good that McSandwich was. I have found that planning is essential. It makes you want to look into that freezer meals for a week thing. Honey Girl, just keep tracking. Things like this happen.
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    1612 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/14/2017 3:02:45 PM
    This is honest of how we all feel at times. I did notice at the end of your post, you put a plan in place for the next time-that my friend is where the victory is. #practicemakesperfect #littlebylittle
    1612 days ago
  • ELINA26
    Thanks Quinny- yeah the struggle is real but am not willing to give up-
    1612 days ago
  • QUINNY2016
    Love your post! You are frank, honest and real! Thank you! Not that you have to struggle, but I need to hear that I'm not alone! This has helped me immensely. Thank YOU!
    1612 days ago
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