Working On Attitudes
Saturday, January 07, 2017
So. Here I am again.
Just another reboot? Maybe.
All I know is today, I feel settled in my life again, after several years of upheaval, change and out of control eating alternating with short bouts of controlled eating and exercise.
Is anything different this time? Maybe not.
But I think I've set a more realistic goal this time. I have many pounds to lose and I'm going to really work and try to focus on things besides the number on the scale. Especially because, I know what it's like physically to feel miserable because of my diabetes and poor food choices. I want to feel healthy and have energy again.
One area where my attitude is definitely different this time, I think, is with exercise. 6 years ago I was working out almost daily, and had tons of energy. Today, it's hard to walk around the mall without getting winded.
I have accepted that's where I am starting from...again. So I'm walking more. At lunchtime I've been trying to walk at work. My husband has committed to going to the gym with me 3 times per week. I will walk on the treadmill there with him. I will do what I can, and gradually build myself back up, like I did last time.
The past is gone and I can't change it. I can only do what's before me today.
My attitude is different. But it's also a new attitude that I will need to work hard to keep.
But I feel more content after this past week of better tracking and walking the little bit I did than I have in a very long time. I want to keep it that way.
Peace of mind is worth more than anything in the world.