2017 will be one heck of a challenging year for me.
For the past 3 months I have been suffering with S.A.D. and chemical imbalances in my brain.
My BP was extremely high.
I kept feeling like fainting (vision narrowing and white snow in front of eyes)
I ended up having severe nightmares (emotional, not violence).
The nightmares gave me anxiety attacks, which I had never had before.
I would wake up with a fever, soaking wet, trembling, not being able to stand on my legs.
I had severe headaches and hypersensitivity to sight, smell and noise.
Anything would make me feel nauseous.
After managing to get to the shower, most symptoms would subside, washed away.
The confusion and the shaking of hands and legs however would linger throughout the day.
The strange thing however was that I did not FEEL anxious, or did not recognize it as anxiety.
More like confusion, yeah, EXTREME confusion. And zero energy.
I was tested (memory, speed, attention and flexibility, problem solving, etc.)
and my brain function was at below 10% of normal.
Witth 3 different medications triggering different brain chemicals, regular appointments with
a therapist, and daily brain exercises, my overall percentile is up to 40%
Problem solving 85%
I hope to be able to improve on that this year.
It is frustrating and very scary when your brain stops performing the way it is supposed to.
Expecially when it is something beyond your control, and something you can not fix with a
little pill. The brain chemicals can be readjusted, but the damage that has been done will
take time and a lot of daily exercise to reactivate the different parts of my brain.
It frightens the heck out of me. But I can see (and feel) improvement, so I am holding onto that.