Life Hasn't Slowed Down Yet
Thursday, October 27, 2016
Well, I discovered my boyfriend was a complete snake, so he's history and I'm back with an old flame who knows me really and appreciates me for who I am not to mention is someone who I have real and genuine passion with. He told me, "You know we aren't getting married." I told him, "You always say that." I am much happier now.
I'm back in the 70s. Or at least that's what the scale's been saying in general. I hesitate to trust it, but I've been getting that general vibe from it lately, so perhaps it's really true. I've definitely been working hard enough to get there. I've been burning calories like crazy, exercising hard enough that I did my back again, so it's off to the chiropractor asap, and being pretty reasonable on calories, although I admit I've totally stopped tracking. Things have just been busy in my life and I haven't had the time to commit to tracking anything at all. I exercise and I focus on not binging, remind myself not to starve myself all day either, and it seems like the scale has slowly been going down. Slowly. I felt like I was going to be stuck in the high 80s for a lifetime, but then I got down to the low 80s, and lately I've been seeing the 70s start to come around more often so it seems feasible that my weight is headed there now. So I'm finally down 70 pounds again. This was absolutely necessary. And I feel like now that Bryan's out of the picture, I can focus more on my health and weight loss and the things I need to do for myself.
Bryan tried to tear apart my self esteem, but I actually feel better about myself now that he's gone. I can start really seeing things clearly now that he's not obscuring everything and he was cluttering up my life. I'm really lucky I realized the reality of things when I did.