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Getting fed up again.

Tuesday, October 18, 2016

Well a lot has happened since that last post in January. First, I've gained weight. :( BIG SAD FACE. About 30 pounds.
Its odd because family and friends say "you sound so less stressed, so happy now that you've moved to your new home" and yet when we purchased our house, and we moved out to the country I actually gained weight. I feel like I'm stressed to the max most of the time.
This past winter we moved from Fairbanks to North Pole. We moved from a townhome style condo to a single family home. It's a LOVELY home! What's crazy is I've gained so fast since moving to it.
Is it my age? (42) Is it because I've lost so much muscle? (I believe it, the vacuum is heavy now) Is it stress? (I believe it, I'm balancing so many different things I don't know which way is up and which way is down)

Whatever it is, I'm frustrated. Along with that my hubby seems to only keep gaining as well and he's totally comfortable with staying there.
Since we're a bit slower now at work I'm hoping to be able to write some more to get some of the ideas and feelings out. I have no idea if it will work but it's worth a try.
I now have a lovely work out room. It has a treadmill, an aeropilates machine and a recumbent bike (which i thoroughly dislike, it's very wobbly and cheap. I want a nice stairstepper, or an elliptical machine instead) .

So, does anyone know that moment when you're just getting fed up? That's where I'm at now. I'm fed up. I don't feel proactive at all, I feel like hubby and I are just reacting to whatever comes up at us. And that is slowing us down on all sorts of goals.
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I mean, we have a cruise coming up in almost less than 200 days. We have a reason to lose weight. Neither hubby nor I just seem to have the motivation for it. And it seems as if every time I do start getting some momentum, something comes in the way. Sigh.
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  • CAPECODLIGHT
    Even if you are not "fed up" yet, perhaps you can achieve some small positive things that will build into the motivation you need. I find that helps me get started now when I am not living healthily, rather than trying to be perfect all at once. Something like cutting out sweets, or drinking the appropriate amount of water, or walking for 15 minutes - whatever you think you can commit to for a week and achieve.
    I also wanted to comment on getting stressed out and juggling lots. For quite a while I kept telling my close friends that I had lost my resiliency of spirit. Things that would not throw me in my youth now would send me over the edge, or I couldn't do lots of things at once without getting frazzled. I wonder if it is a function of age. My mantra is "This too shall pass" which I tell myself when I feel I am getting uptight. I also look to make partners and not do everything myself and have learned to shrug things off or go for a nice walk or curl up and read by myself - whatever fills the wellspring again.
    Onward!

    1148 days ago
  • MSDESERTRODENT
    Actually the crazy bit Morticia is we haven't officially retired. I'm 42, hubby is 43. He retired from the Army but we still work full time. I also am President of an HOA in Fairbanks. Since we don't have a property management company that we have hired, guess who is the property manager? (ME!)
    Then my son is in taekwondo, does that 2 nights a week, and spars once every other week.
    Last night was super frustrating. The cat water dish broke, the fish tank broke, the night before my alarm clock broke with a power outage we had and hubby forgot to take the fish out for dinner. CRAZY emoticon
    1152 days ago
  • MORTICIAADDAMS
    I can totally relate. I thought when I retired I would have tons of time. I thought I might even get bored living out here in the country so far from town. Bt in town I lived in a one bedroom apartment and we had one vehicle. Here I have a house with 5 outbuildings, a boat, and 6.5 acres to help my hubby take care of. Plus 3 pets. It's a lot of work. And I am often stressed as some problem is always cropping up. Something is always not working. A dead tree is hanging over the house. The car needs a new wheel. The pets need dental surgery. On and on. I hope things improve for you soon!
    1152 days ago
  • URII19
    I feel ya. I lost 25 pounds before college, and within 6 or so months, I gained 30 back. I'm currently at the heaviest I've ever been, and I'm putting a stop to it. It can be hard to stay motivated in the face of stress. Food is a comfort. Good luck!
    1152 days ago
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