I know, I should encourage myself instead of criticise, but this week since Friday has really not gone my way. I mean that I have not been able to do what I really wanted to do, in spite of my efforts.
My BP has been extremely high.
Everytime I get upright, I get giddy in my head. A bit like seeing stars, except not like after a fall or a blow. More like hypersensitivity to any source of light, including sunlight.
I am seeing my GP in 2 days, so I got to be sensible and patient with myself.
But it leaves me frustrated,, like I let myself down.
I have been trying to rest more, hoping that would make my BP come down.
But it is slightly "critical" right now, like an average of 165+ systolic over 115+ diastolic with a high of 196/124. I am lightheaded all the time and have no energy at all.
And when I feel out of control like this, I want to eat. So I am really struggling not to.
However, 2 things really inspired me today.
I went over quotes of the day, and came across this one on Twitter:
And I have been watching Dancing with the Stars. Watching how people who are not physically inclined towards ballroom dancing, work so hard to improve their skills and look really good in the process, and really enjoy it.
My favorites are Laurie Hernandez (only 16 years old and such a natural success in everything she does) and James Hinchcliffe, the Indycar driver. I love Hinchcliffe and would like him to win, but it might very well be Laurie Hernandez that will take it to the top, and she deserves every single point from the judges. Wow, that dedication!
How can I do less than give it 100% too.
So yesterday (it is after Midnight right now, so yes, talking about yesterday still) I did fairly well. I had a Special-K dairy protein shake for breakfast, a veggie protein shake for lunch (greens, carrots, v8 tomato juice, v8 greens & protein powder), a salad with guacamole and 5oz of popcorn chicken (frozen and microwaved) wrapped in a medium tortilla for dinner and lots of herbal tea.
And I worked out for about 2hrs spread out over the day (gazelle, bike, strength training, and flexibility)