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Oops, I did it again...

Monday, August 22, 2016

Yep, I fell off the wagon. Nothing new here. It seems to be my jam.

The last time I was here I had just welcomed 2 cats and a dog into my home and it has taken me months to feel like I'm not losing my mind... myself.

I got on the scale and the news wasn't good. I'm really terrified that I'm going to drop dead at 40 from a massive heart attack. I'm so very aware with how much time I spend sitting. I need to STOP. And by stop I mean GO! MOVE! Do something!

I've started using a pedometer. It has given me a little motivation to beat my step count. I'm trying to realize walking the dog isn't a chore and it should be enjoyed by both of us. It's been easier than I anticipated. I am getting back on the LOW CARB wagon. I made a deliciously exquisite pizza from cauliflower last night and eating it felt good. I just need to stop slacking and get it together. I'm so frustrated with myself. I'm actually considering weight loss surgery, something I vowed I'd never do as surgery terrifies me and I saw my sister deal with a lot of complications and nearly dying after she had her surgery. My husband does not want me to get surgery either. I'd love to be thin and healthy but I feel like I need to do this the old fashioned way...but can I? Can I actually lose at least 100 lbs? I can't even get my life together long enough to lose 30 lbs. I feel like I hate myself and I need help but there is no help for me. I just need to do it already.

I'm making some promises to myself right now.

I will log in to Spark every day.
I will log every morsel of food that passes my lips.
I will drink an appropriate amount of water.
I will use my pedometer. I will walk twice a day. And if the dog can't walk for more than 15 minutes because she's just a pup, I will bring her home and continue my walk on my own.
I will use my xbox Kinect that has been collecting dust for years now and I will get moving with it.
I will aim to do yoga every day, even if just for 10 minutes because I really don't enjoy it. Or I don't think I do, because it's been so long.

This blog has no flow to it - it's just a jumble of words I guess, but it is for my own benefit this time. I just need to put it in writing so I can move forward and get somewhere.

I'm hungry and I'm unsure where to even begin now.
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  • JEM2929
    Thank you Ramona! I'm coming to check you out!
    1556 days ago
  • JEM2929
    Thank you everyone! I feel a lot better today. I stayed on track and I feel really good about it. I think I can do this. Thanks for the encouragement!
    1556 days ago
  • _RAMONA
    This blog has flow, and even better than flow, it has a PLAN. You can do this.

    8 years ago I didn't think I could do this either, but two weeks ago I posted my progress pictures for almost 100 lbs. eliminated! If I can do this (with health issues, a deranged metabolism, and amidst several life crises), anyone can.

    If I may, I'd like to recommend a couple of resources:

    The Art & Science of Low-Carb Living by Phinney & Volek

    The Obesity Code by Dr. Jason Fung

    These books saved my life.


    ...and come participate on the Paleo team! We're great cheerleaders!
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    1558 days ago
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    If you're frustrated hungry, get the biggest raw carrots you can and take your frustration out on them. Chew them and it can be helpful. I fight sinus headaches and they are helpful for some reason. I understand and do things you like, if you can.
    1558 days ago
  • no profile photo CD16989319
    We all "fall off the wagon". We have to remember to start over the next day. You can do this.
    1558 days ago
  • VONTRUKKA
    Love animals myself!! Good for you
    1558 days ago
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