A year in tropical hell & another big move!
Wednesday, July 27, 2016
..here I am again and frankly, I'm not sure what the hell happened.
Just had my 54th bday and back up to 160 lbs. boooooo. That said I have been stressed beyond what I thought I could ever deal with.
By the beginning of this year my sister and I were regularly getting on each other's nerves. I was getting zero "assistance" in taking care of our mom, thus she was getting no "handy man/house work out of us". It was truly miserable so hubby snd I made the decision to move out and spent several long months looking at every thing we could find that would accommodate both of us and my mother. My sister was so upset , that I signed us up for therapy to try and smooth out the transition. It didn't work. Things got SO crazy and emotionally charged that as we found a place and started the process of getting it, sister went full bat poop crazy. It's a long , sordid story but she was able to get me arrested after a non-event, in which I was the only one hurt. Still, it's a big nasty mess still hanging over my head. During this time my mom got sick and after a hospital stay we moved her to a nursing home, where she has been for about 3 months. Hubby and I are in our new place, over the moon happy with it, but I'm still struggling with massive guilt around putting my mom in a nursing home.
So much to do as we settle in and decorate, etc., that I have made time for serious workout in months. I did follow thru with a cardiologist , learning I have somewhat leaking heart valves (mitral/atrial ) but nothing that should b stopping me from working out. Another sister on the mainland recently found out she has congestive heart failure and that is weighing on me too.
So, I have the "go ahead" to get it together and get healthy......but all I want to go is sleep and carb load!!!
Maybe I can recapture the spark magic I so greatly need to get thru this stressful life phase!