Disclaimer: If you are one of those people who tells me not to look at the past and just look forward, click the X now. I don't think you will fully understand what I am saying or where I'm coming from, so it's better if you just leave now.
Okay good, now that it's just US, I can proceed.
Some of the best things that come up happen when I'm chatting with Lynn. We have both decided to look at what is going on NOW, and not all the regain that has happened to each of us. We have forgiven ourselves for the past, the slip ups, and the defeat, and we have dusted ourselves off and moved forward. With that she showed me a photo of her where she looked amazing. That is where she wants to be again. But I thought we agreed not to look back on the past?
The way I see it there is dwelling on the past, beating yourself up for the past, or obsessing about the past. Those are not healthy things and I understand why they can hinder us on this journey. But I do believe that you can draw on inspiration from the past. At one point I had lost 90 pounds... while that may sound like I'm harping about my glory days and trying to relive the past I assure you that is not the case. Let me explain. If I managed to lose 90 pounds, that means that there are a lot of good things from that journey that may work for me again. There are a lot of tools, a lot of things that can inspire me to do better. When I look at my old pictures and how skinny I looked (at least how skinny *I* thought I looked LOL), it typically makes me happy and inspired. Now if I am feeling low, it can be an even lower blow. If I look at that picture and think "how did you let this get away from you?" I click off the photo immediately. But if I look at it, feel inspired and think "this is where you once were and this is where you WILL get again", I end up feeling truly motivated.
So as my friend showed me the amazing photo of her, I said I don't know if you have those same clothes, but I would LOVE to see you recreate that photo in the future. Then it got me to thinking what photo could I recreate. Disneyland of course! ;)
My past Birthday I did a blog of reverse Before & After, where I showed from my B-day 2015 to Bday 2016 and the changes because of all the weight I had gained. It truly was not to torture myself or to beat myself up, but it was to show me the physical changes that came with this weight gain. It was also to show me that despite the weight gain, I still had a cheesy grin and a very blessed, happy and active day! It was to show me how many things could change in just one year, even if those changes weren't good. But it inspires me see what could change for the better in that same years time.
So as I looked through, my favorite picture ever was Sulley & I in January 2015... Sadly Sulley isn't out in Disneyland anymore these days, so that picture really can't be recreated.
But I have two photos that can be recreated, and the icing on the cake is that I have the same photo again with the weight gain. So I can have a Before, After, After cycle going. I can show the full circle of the weight loss, to the weight gain, to the loss again.
These pictures are almost EXACTLY one year apart. Would I love to be back in the 180's come this January/February to recreate the photo? Sure, but that might not be realistic. I don't care how long it takes me, but I'd be happy to recreate these photos one more time!
My current weight is 232, so a little higher than the February photos sadly, but all I can do is continue the downward trend.
I look forward to recreating those photos, no matter how long it might take!