It's funny how such a tiny, sweet, perfectly timed comment can make your day. Today I had not one, but two very sweet comments from two of my favorite Sparkers! (Deb & Bess I'm talking about you!) I was going to write them back, but then I thought why not update in a blog? It's funny though because I feel like there is nothing going on... but i do realize that people start to wonder what is going on when you are quiet. (Deb & Bess, not talking about you in that instance, you ladies always check in on me and I am so very blessed). So I guess a quick update is better than keeping people wondering.
The bad news is I have no good news to share LOL!
I am currently fighting the Ant wars. This hadn't happened in 2 years and now they are back full force. I have gotten rid of them twice but then they come from somewhere else. I feel like I can only put the traps in certain areas because of the dog, so I'm pretty frustrated with that.
I have been eating like crap. There is no other way to say it. One thing I have decided in my everyday life is that I'm done talking about weight loss. I have been talking about getting back on track off and on for a year and I have had 0 long term success. I've had a few good weigh ins and quickly rebound. It's so funny, but it's one of those things where I need to stop drawing attention to my screw ups.
As for Spark, I don't think that I will ever fully stop sparking, and I don't mind pointing out my screw ups to all of you ha ha. But as far as talking the talk and not walking the walk in my everyday life, I just have to knock it off.
I did however promise myself on Spark and my weight loss journey facebook page, that I would stop saying what I'm GOING to do and only report what I've already done. I really think part of the reason I am struggling so much is for all the broken promises to myself. Is it a little embarrassing to say I am going to do x,y,z and then not follow through or quit pretty quickly into it. But the worst part is the disappoint in yourself... thinking wow I just couldn't do it, or I didn't put forth the effort.
So I have been honest about posting anything I WANT to do and only what I HAVE already done, but I haven't really done a whole lot.
One thing I will say is I am on day 3 of no caffeine! It has been brutal! I am a diet soda drinker, and I have kicked the habit a couple times in the past but it always comes back. The thing that got to me was one night at work I had the worst headache that even Tylenol couldn't get rid of, I realized it was because I hadn't had a soda yet. That really just made me so mad. To think I was at the mercy of a soda, ridiculous!
The other thing is that on the rare occasion I want a boost from caffeine (an early day at Disneyland, a horrible tired night at work), I would like to know that an Iced Coffee or Monster Energy Drink would actually give me a boost. My body is so accustomed to caffeine that it doesn't give me a boost when I need it.
I decided I should start this during my 8 days off work, but I went out with a friend on the second day, so I am only 3 days in. I am SO glad that I waited until I was off because my headaches have been ridiculous, but Wednesday will mark day 4 and I hope I can keep going and not turn back.
What it made me realize is maybe tackling just one or two habits at a time, and making those habits LONG TERM is the way to go. So while my weight is up, my spirit is down, all I can do is just keep trying.
In fun news I tried this Trader Joe'sVegan Chicken-less Orange Chicken and it was DELICIOUS!