Oh, what a summer it has been! Ups and downs but mostly smiles and sunshine...but then some rain and floods... This has been a difficult month...and a glorious one...
Weight Pre-Op: 437.8 (start of pre-op diet)
Last Month: 317.2
This Week: 312
Weight Lost This Month: -5.2 pounds :/
Weight Lost Since Pre-Op: -125.8
Total Weight Lost Since Highest: 154.6
So the weight loss is either slowing down or this was a bad/slow month for me. Honestly, I think it's both. I had my check-up with the doctor this month (finally) - my actual surgeon - and he called me out on everything I might be doing to "get around" my sleeve. He was right. I've taught myself how to work around the restrictions. Not good. Recognizing that now, though...that's good. He said that this was the time now to shape my body. The first 6 months is over, now on to the next 6-8 months. We also finally set a goal for me of 210-220 pounds before we look into plastics.
That goal hit me like a ton of bricks.
I honestly just haven't had a prescribed goal before. Not really. Not a reasonable one. Not one that seemed attainable. The fact that this one is out there and it seems like I could reach it...that scares the living daylights out of me. Which prompted me to do something outrageous today...
...more on that later.
First, some NSV for this month.
Colored my hair. That may not seem like much, but when I start investing in myself like that, it means something to me. It was also prep for our first family pictures in a decade (sneak peek above - I haven't gotten the rest back yet).
Went on a beach vacation and did all the things. I was quite bummed that we missed out on visiting Dry Tortugas (poor planning by me, if you can believe it) but we still went snorkeling and kayaking, did lots of walking, visited Key West and saw Hemingway's house and cats, ate key lime pie, saw the sunset, swam in the ocean and played at the pool.
Done feeling "big" at the beach!
Want a shirt? Buy one! Don't have to shop for extended sizes - just an XL will do!
The mom who snorkels with her sons! NOTE: There is a part where you have to sit down on the back of the boat and put on your fins and then another when you have to take them off before you get in and then climb the later. I worried about both of these...I didn't have to! Not a problem "fitting in" this time!
I went...and I fell in. This was the moment I learned that I'm not THAT small yet and my upper body strength is CRAP right now. I had to get to the side and use a bridge to be able to get back in my boat! UGH!
BUT I wasn't completely wiped after! We even went and did the Key West/Hemingway house AFTER kayaking! Can you believe it!?!
Shane bought me this 3x dress a million years ago (or maybe just a year) but didn't realize that was 3x in Asian sizes! *lol* I was finally able to wear it for him and he kept commenting on how pretty I was on our sunset date.
When we got back, it was back to the gym...for a bit..
And volunteering for flood victims here in WV. (So sad! Also the day I realized my body is smaller, but I still need to build my strength and stamina because I was WIPED after 7 hours of unpacking, sorting, and repacking supplies for people.)
Other things of note:
- My smile is more genuine.
- I'm still not 100% with my body and how it's progressing and I'm working on that.
- I'm being overworked right now and it's stressing me out.
- I've been stress eating and getting in my own way a bit.
- I'm not there yet...but I can see "there" and that's scary.
So, the biggest news is that today I signed up to be a Beachbody coach! I was looking for a new program that I can incorporate and take with me anywhere (work has me traveling for the next 2 weeks...I'm writing this from a B&B right now so I can't get to the gym) and will fit into my goals to "reshape my body" and I came across 21 Day Fix and signed up! I'm working on figuring out my routine but I think I'm ready to get started tomorrow. I'm going to try the shakeology shakes everyone raves about and add more protein to make them fit what I need. I'll also be working on adding meditation and yoga to my routines because I need those for my sanity as well. It will be a fun journey! I'll let you all know how it goes, but I really want a chance to inspire people to work hard and not punish themselves. To treat fitness as an exercise in SELF LOVE. I'm tired of beating myself up for all the things I'm not! I'm ready to love all the things I have and can do and am doing with my life!