It finally makes sense to me! Now how do I fix it?

I was writing the post below on my team fitness accountability challenge page and as I was writing it, it finally hit me! This one verse in the bible never made sense to me until tonight at church. Now, I just need the FIX! It's all mental, I'm sure!
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My fitness has been so lame! It's honestly embarrassing. I have ran twice in the last 4 weeks! That is pretty pitiful. I have no excuse, other than I have been traveling. riding my bike 197.3 miles in the last 30 days, so that part is good. Zero swimming. It's not looking good for the 1000 mile commitment this year.

I think part of my anti-fitness was fear of the Olympic distance Tri. I am so glad that my nephew Josh and I agreed that it was not a good idea for either of us to do it. Had we done it the day we signed up, we probably would have done GREAT! But the thought of it staring us in the face daily the past 6 months has been awful.

I have a tri on July 16th, sprint distance, and I'm pretty sure I'll be fine on that one. It's the one I've been doing the training classes for, although I missed 4 weeks of class because of vacation, but I have gotten some great tips that I think are going to be very useful in the race. I can even ride 10+ miles without my feet falling asleep! That has been a real problem for me for several years.

So, I've got to get a move on. I have got to commit to myself. We've been working our way through the book of Revelation at church on Wednesdays. One of the topics that came up tonight was repentance and how it works. When we repent, we are supposed to NOT go do that sin again. I mentioned the fact that even the Apostle Paul said in Romans 7:15 "I don't know what I'm doing because I don't do what I want to do. Instead I do the thing that I hate." I finally GET it!

That is where I am. Daily I repent and say I am going to do better, get fit and eat right, but daily I fail. I cannot commit to myself. Why is that? What is holding me back from being fit? From being committed to my health? When will this madness end? Haha.